How and why did I lose all my friends?

[Secretservice]

I'm feeling so sad today. I just want to hide away and cry, because there doesn't seem to be anyone left in RL to talk to.

I've tried to keep upbeat, cos I hate feeling so pathetic and worthless. It's not really me, but just don't have the energy left to fake it anymore.

My h left in July, but is back, not because he wants to be, but because ow threw him out. And he's not going anywhere. Sol said I had little chance of getting occupation order. Can't sell house not enough equity, rent for me and 3 DCs would cost more than mortgage etc etc.

But the real point of the post is that nobody outside the house seems to care. My 'friends' just seem to have disappeared, some a few years ago when we moved, despite promises to keep in touch. But the final straw was texting two yesterday both of whom I've known for more than 20 years, saying I was struggling, to get only one reply saying 'sorry to hear that, we must get together soon, but busy til after Xmas'! :(

I have no friends where I live. Only socialise with people from work, which is two hours away. but I'm on holiday this week and facing the prospect of having to sit in my room tonight and all day tomorrow, as I can stand to be in the same room as h, but nor do I want to go out by myself and reinforce the sense that there's nobody else.

So what I need is some tips on getting thru til next Thursday, when I go back to work.
Sorry it's so long. Maybe that's a clue as to where my friends went - I bored them away

hhmmm I know only too well what that's like! Put it out of your mind

I used to find (and still do sometimes) that even when the STBX wasn't around I spent so much of my time and energy thinking about things he had said and done I was making myself more miserable instead of enjoying the fact that he was out!

i say go ahead and make the second date now! it'll be uplifting to feel you have another jollier life now without h.
dont let him get you down...
so glad to hear the date was a success!!! thanks for updating us!

Secret I've been there too, you agree everything should be amicable and then they turn into a selfish, irresponsible twat. Nothing you can do at that point except keep moving on, eyes on the prize, that sort of thing - but its so tough. I had the same thing with cc debt too - he always spent to the limit, every time they increased it, and then it was my fault when he got into arrears and couldn't get a mortgage.

No thank you Omri, for taking an interest!

Shrugged it off, for now, thanks to message from last night's admirer and a couple more possibles have messages on the site . That and the fact I don't have to see history rewriter for at least two days.

enjoy your time without him - like myroom said - dont waste your time thinking about things he's said and done while you have time to yourself. so happy you have the nice distraction of an admirer ;)