The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Blowing Away The Cobwebs, Brushing Up The Leaves, Whilst Travelling On The Battle Bus, To Our Own Sobrieties.

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Hello I'm Mouse

Welcome to the Brave Babes Battle Bus, aka Gerald. It's a lovely place for drinkers, non-drinkers, wobblers and thinkers...... we're a really mixed bunch who all have one thing in common, alcohol.

Whether that be past or present, it can always be our future due to the nature of the beast.

Everyone can join this thread, the support is unconditional. And it is here for anyone who wants it, now or in a little while, there's always a spare seat or three!

Why not take a look at the journeys so far at the link below, it'll take you back through the last two (plus) years, and also I've posted a link to the very first thread....... the reason that we are all on the Bus in the first place

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FIRST EVER THREAD

Ta love! joey

green hi, tough isn't it?

I was bit put off by some aspects of the aa website, some of the stories were a bit extreme. But I think I need some rl help now too. I know that if I could get clear and stay clear for a few weeks then I could manage. Most of my drinking is a stupid habit, so it's not so much the quantity (per night) as the frequency of drinking. If that makes sense- it's left me very dependent and it's the dependency I need to deal with.

I am a bit scared of going to aa because I'm a wuss is it really confidential? What if I saw people I know from work? Also can I just show up and sit at the back? Not worried at all by the spiritual malarky but v. worried about being recognised.

will stop being selfish in a bit and say hi to everyone

Gugg am in sidecar too. How much are you drinking? Antabuse obviously isn't the answer for me, I take it for a few months, convince myself I'm cured and stop taking it and hey presto! Back in the land where necking a bottle of wine in a couple of hours before DD gets home from school is normal

Trouble is, it makes me feel as if I've rejoined the land of the living, I hate the feeling that I can't drink (rebellious pre-teen emoticon). Shall we all slap eachother? How do doing Purple, in your jim-jams yet?

soma did you stop taking the antabuse again? why?

hiya soma Yay, team slap for the win!!!!!
Do you think the slapping will help?

I've thought about antabuse following on from your posts, but I really don't want my GP or school to know that I have a problem with drink. I think that it must give your liver a good chance to recover even if you have a drink
occasionally, but I'll try aa first and see how I go.
Would you recommend antabuse? Any side effects? I guess it would work for me - I hate being ill or queasy. What do you think about it?

I drink about 1-2 small glasses a night, it goes up to 1/2 a bottle and pre bus days it would get to 2/3 bottle. I have 2 or 3 af days a week. it's over the unit limit for the week and makes me feel sucky. I just want the sobriety fairy to show up and do all the hard work for me.
How is the land of the living, would I like it?

purple I am WELL jealous of anyone who can climb into their jim jams & head to bed early. Sounds so calm.

Joey I suppose I stopped the antabuse cos I wanted to drink. Gugg you aren't drinking much but obviously you don't feel great about it. Sadly I have to decide that antaubse hasn't worked for me. The moment I stop taking it I'm toast again.

Purple how's your evening going?

Just checking in. Blazing row with Mr wonderful who seems to think all the Christmas presents in the house have been delivered by elves and didn't actually have to be paid for! So having ranted about all the "missing" money , he has now ordered take away for himself. Think he's trying to probe some sort of point.he is such a twat!

Really late getting the jim jams on tonight - not until 7.30pm!! (DC have swimming on Thurs). DD is on duty showing prospective pupils/parents round her school tonight. Ex is bring her home but it means I have to stay up awake until at least 8.30! Purgatory!

Today, again, I had pretty bad cravings. Even heard the 'Evil Voice' telling me that just one bottle wouldn't hurt. Bollocks to that notion! I don't understand why, after all this time, I'm having problems. I wonder if the Campral isn't working any more? It's day 28 tomorrow. I can clearly see all the good stuff that has been the result of giving up the wine but......fucking thing still keeps whispering in my ear. I find it so difficult to get over the 'well, I've done (fill in the blank) today and I deserve a treat. This schizophrenic 'evil brain'/'good brain' drives me insane.

The 'necking a bottle of wine...before DD gets home from school' sounds very familiar to me Soma. When they all get home, it's like being hit with a tidal wave of sound and energy. I love them to bits, obviously, but it's really 'full on' when they get home. Trouble for me is that if I do that, I then have to walk up to the school (about 15 mins) and I'm scared to death that someone will notice it on my breath or my change in behaviour (I tend to be a bit funnier but still fully functioning). I yo-yoed (sp) the same way you are and I can't say it's not going to happen again. I hope you have a better evening/night.

Gugg I have the same reservations as you about AA. So much so that I travelled 15 miles away and tried to go in but, I have to be honest, there were lots of....errrr....undesirable types hanging round outside the door. I don't even know if they were there for an AA meeting but they scared me off unless I was looking for an 'out' that is Unlike you, I find the 'higher power' bit off putting but I think it depends on which meeting you go to, they're all different apparently. Ha, jealous of my evening attire, huh!? It's my safety net - won't get dressed and 'nip' to the corner shop if I've already settled in for the night .

Hi to Joey and Green Hope you are doing OK?

Hey Purple it is bloody hard and it's two steps forward one step back but that's progress isn't it? Well done for being so strong tonight, I wasn't and I'm disappointed in myself. At least I stopped after one bottle and cuddled up now with dog and DD now and I'm a Celebrity.

I really wonder if I'll ever give up booze completely. I just seem to veer from sobriety to a sudden binge and then back again. Groundhog day. Again. You OK Joey?

Evening, tis me, Mouse

We've got a date for Nemo's cleft op........ next Wednesday. I feel sick, and worried and scared and happy that it's almost over.

Sorry to butt in and just 'blah' it out. I'm needing to let it out wherever I can so here I am. I'm scared to death that they will f@ck up again and we'll me

Will be back tomorrow. Hope you are all safe and sound.

Stay Brave Babes. xx

mouse it must be scary waiting for nemos op, but good to finally get it over with?

was looking forward to my weekly drink on saturday, but now found we are going to in-laws... and I made a rule about not drinking there as it always ends up messy. oh well, its becoming a habit, I'm getting used to it. really not easy putting up with mil when sober though!

still tired, worried, anxious... need another early night

Oh mouse how terrifying for you.but how wonderful. Try and focus on the difference this will make to his
life. His eating,breathing,sleeping, talking will all be so much better. This is a gift you are giving him and we will all be here holding your hand all the way through.
On another note, don't suppose Mrmouse is free for a shag, by any chance? hopeful

ma how is your head and throat today? dh said the chewable aspirin did help his pain, but made him fart. not that I wanted to know...

sobasoma hi, I see you have stopped antabuse.I just got prescribed it by gp today.am on last day of librium detox..10 days alcohol free now, and start antabuse 2moro. did you find that all your beauty products had to be alcohol free out you would get rash etc or were you ok?
I just came to the conclusion that, taking antabuse,I know I will not be able to drink as I will be very ill..and this gives me time to build better coping and relaxation strategies. I had been putting away at least a bottle of wine a night and convinced myself that the odd sweat I broke out in on my face each day was due to increased weight..funnily enough, had no sweats since stopped drinking with help of librium. stating to see alcohol more and more for the poison it is.
ladies, if AA is too daunting, get some 1:1 support at local alcohol service

Oh mouse! How terrifying and exciting!

Kotinka - when I read your post yesterday I thought - d&d - drunk and disorderly? Surely that's a bit cavalier? Penny has just dropped (an so it should, I spent most of my late teens in imaginary cave complexes. and I still have not forgiven those bastards for leaving ofta the dwarf behind when he was turned to stone by medusa

Mouse have everything crossed for you for Nemo's op. Dippy you don't need to worry about the amount of alcohol in toiletries etc - it's minute and has never affected me. It's great news about your detox and I'm sure antabuse will help you. As you say, the key thing is it "gives me time to build better coping and relaxation strategies". This, unfortunately, is what I've failed to do whilst on it, because the minute I come off it, I drink. I'll probably go back on it though and try again, because drinking a bottle of wine on my own at 3pm is not what I want to be doing :( Have you thought about what you're going to be working on? Will you try AA?

Morning, tis me, Mouse

I'm scared to death that they will f@ck up again and we'll me - hmm..... that was supposed to read, "will f@ck it up again and that will destroy me"

Thanks for all of the kind words xx

good luck, mouse
soba..I have got some great parenting books to read, and some fab meditation CDs and books, and some religion.also need to get out and see other adults instead of sit in and drink..so that's my plan! I can't go to AA as too many of my clients would be there!

Just to quickly say - Oh, Mouse, how exciting and scary - in equal measures! Will be thinking of you and wishing for the best ever outcome . Be brave! x

No, although I might well be tempted once ds gets a bit older. My uncle, who looks like sarf london's answer to vandals, still plays regularly.

I saw this en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Munchkin_(card_game) in a shop last week and was quite tempted. I bought risk instead and ds is hooked.

Having a couple of glasses of wine tonight as it's the weekend, but that's all as it's all there is in the house, apart from anything else. Watching sky news about Hamas /Israel conflict - I have a really bad feeling about it...

That would be gandalf, not vandals - autocorrect at work. Although he would probably make a good Vandal.