I was both won over and flattered by his charm and attention. Now it is something which only partially soothes my underlying unease.
I was flattered, but doubted, that he could "love' me as quickly as he said. I now doubt whether he can or will follow through these sentiments and that he may even use "love" to justify leaving.
I feel frustrated and confused more often. I feel as thought I have fewer and fewer grounds to object to his absences/changes of plan/avoidance of making plans even a couple of days hence.
I am really concerned that he busted some of my boundaries and I don't know how to put them back in place. I am a reasonable and conscientious woman and this seems to have left me without a voice.
Lately I feel as though me voicing any objections or complaints will be responded to by turning them back on me as an "impatient and demanding" , woman whilst he is doing his best for everyone except himself.
His perception of himself as a willing helper, putting other's (including me) before his own needs feels like a justification for keeping things exactly the same.
I fear the agony that I anticipate will follow should I tell him it's over - although a part of me suspects that after a few days I will begin to see things more clearly, I will feel less anxious, less confused, less frustrated, less disappointed.
BUT. A voice in my head persists in asking "but what if you're wrong and you ARE impatient, demanding" etc.