DH and I have been married for 10 years and we have two lovely DCs. Our marriage has been falling apart over the course of the last year, but I am finding it so hard to accept that it is over.
His approach towards me since the birth of our last child has destroyed what we had, and has left only sadness and anger. I honestly don't recognise him as the man that I married, but I just can't seem to accept that it cannot be fixed and that it won't go back to the way things were.
He has emotionally detached from me over the past twelve months, has slowly shut down all communication, will not show me any physical affection and has made baseless and ridiculous accusations (that I had an affair with our neighbour -wtf?? - and that I "deceived" him into having a second child when he knows in truth that I did no such thing).
He moved out - he said temporarily - in February, but it is becoming clear to me that really he has no intention of coming home. Despite that, and despite the fact that I don't want to be in a marriage where I feel no love or support, I have been trying everything I can to persuade him to come home. But now, I feel hopeless, and silly, and desperate to pull myself together and accept that I can't hold this together by myself. When I ask whether he wants to separate permanently, he just tells me that he doesn't know what he wants. And so I see some hope, and the cycle continues.
I am just finding it really hard. I don't know where things went so wrong. I don't know why or how this has happened. He seems fixated on the fact that it is my fault - that I have always prioritised the kids over his needs, that I don't communicate properly with him - but I really don't see how that has caused this and wish I knew just what the hell had changed in him.