My husband, previously vey loving suddenly became distant, and just not himself about 6 weeks ago. I knew he was very worried about money, his employment contract ends tomorrow and he has no new work lined up and we have a huge mortgage. But after pushing pushing him to tell me why he was behaving so oddly towards me (in previous difficult times we have always clung to each other) a whole load of stuff came out, about what I had and hadn't done and how he felt emotionally disconnected from me. He then disappeared off the next day, came back in a fury and after many teary conversations we were trying to get back on track.
I ruined it all last week by going ballistic, feeling the pressure of trying to do the right thing to make him happy again, worry about the future, feeling rejected. I had too much to drink on a day out with friends and was totally out of control, attacked him, accused him of seeing someone else, he says he's not, but a couple of people have asked me if its a possibility because of his behaviour. My behaviour that days was/is totally unacceptable, I felt mortified and embarassed. I have apologised to everyone and over and over again to him. But he is now not sure if he can ever forgive me ...... spent 2 nights sleeping somewhere else but refuses to say where and has just shut down on me completely.
Could this all be driven by the lack of work, money worries, feeling overwhelmed with responsibilities or is it hopeless? I have told him its over, then backtracked, I'm a mess!