Hello - what do you reckon. I've been seeing a guy for a few months that I met on internet dating site. He seems really keen and we've been in close contact and got quite close. Been away for a couple of weekends together. He comes over and cuts the grass for me. I make him lovely meals. He takes me out for dinner. We have fun. Share sense of humour. He's easy going and understanding. Seems caring and attentive. Very complimentary to me. He says that he loves me, which I don't feel able to reciprocate in as many words although I do 'love' his company. He's said not to worry about this, he's relaxed about it.
I've just come out of a 15 year relationship with a very difficult man and have two children. I suppose I'm not used to being with a guy who is so nice to me. I'm on my guard for evidence that he's going to change or turn. And I'm wondering if I got too involved too quickly and if I would have been better spending more time on my own for a while. I'm not needy - pretty independent and I am calling the shots. I told him before I'm not happy with girlfriend/boyfriend labels but recently has started using these terms again. I'm pretty sure if I asked him to back off he would. It's always been up to me.
I feel pretty comfortable with him sexually etc. I've been more adventurous with him than previous partners and enjoyed it..but perhaps wondering if this is leading somewhere else. Although, he's always respected my boundaries and again, down to me to call shots. Not felt any pressure to do anything I didn't want to. Been really fun.
Dunno...have a trip booked for late July. Part of me thinking about pulling out of this and going on my own. Although I'm also quite excited about going with him. Aaahh!! I think I want cake and eat it. I like having a man, and the sex of course, as well as knocking about with him..but also like freedom of being single. I'm not sure what my problem is! Just looking for some feedback I suppose.