The pill, anyone else feel like a new person since coming off it?

[susiemumof]

Not sure if this is the right place to post or not but wanted to write this incase it helps someone else.

Am 30 years old and have been on the pill pretty much non-stop since I was 14 (heavy af) obviously came of while ttc and while pg with our 3dc.

Have struggled on and off with terrible mood swings, most of my adult life. Have pretty much starved my lovely dh of affection and often sex (due to no sex drive) for most of our married life. At some points we came close to splitting up because he always felt I pushed him away and I did not know how to be different.

Anyway I came off the pill about 6 months ago (due to medical reasons am not ttc) and I honestly can't believe the difference in me since I came off it.

I am so much happier and loving to my family have no mood swings and can't keep my hands of dh! I'm convinced that being on the pill totally altered my personality.

I actually feel quite sad when I think of how many years I have been on it and in a way feel like I have lost my 20's which I will never get back.

Am posting this as I was talking to a friend today who has just started taking the pill ago 40 and she has experienced a lot of the same symptoms I have mentioned.

Obviously the pill is fantastic for many but I just wanted to share my experience as I had no knowledge of anyone who had experienced what I did when on it.

@thecatsarecrazy how long did it take to get back to normal would you say?

So glad I read this thread. I'm 42 and had been on the pill from the age of 17/18 constantly ( apart from ttc, pregnancy etc ) I feel exactly the same as you @susiemumof and it did result in separation between me and DH as we hadn't had sex for 2/3 years at that point over a year ago now. I felt shut down, switched off, ragey and quite honestly repulsed by him ( and he knew it, which is truly awful ). I came off the pill shortly after we separated in Oct 2018, 6 weeks later I was a completely different person and my God was I rampant! Thankfully after much talking, apologising etc we agreed to get back together and aside from ironing through a few other niggles in our relationship all is good, I feel we have a normal healthy sexual, affectionate realtionship now. I blame the pill entirely for how I was and I'd rather have terrible cramps for 24 hours and a bit of PMT than an exDH!
It too makes me extremely angry that it can have such a negative impact on some women's lives and by extension their boyfriend's, partner's, husband's and children's lives.
I also as a PP said, tried again on another pill for 3 months of this year and I could feel the same thing happening again. Grim.

I switched from cerazette to the implant a month ago. My god the difference! DP could always tell when I was due on because of my mood swings. I'd also get hysterically upset over stuff and was generally a moody cow. We twigged when I had my period on the implant and no pre-warning mood swings. I feel like a different person. I'll never take the pill again. Was on it on and off since my teens and I've always suffered with mood swings. Thought it was just me.