Going through a rough patch and when I need someone there's no one there. It's usually me, I am the one that will donate an evening to lend an ear to a friend in need, but now when I would like a friend to be there for me I feel deserted.
I spoke to my brother when I was feeling rather distraught, he was supposed to get back to me with the name of someone who could help but I didn't hear from him, not even to see how I was. I ended up finding my own person to help
Another friend who has supported me via text has rainchecked at the last minute the last two times we have been supposed to meet up, I haven't seen her for months
Another friend emailed me, asked how I was and said she was there for me, I emailed her back but have not heard back, maybe she was just saying that to be polite?
It just seems that people are so busy with their own lives, which I can completely understand, but I just feel forgotten about by friends and they are around when they need support.
Just feel rather grim having been let down again today by a friend I haven't seen in a long while and was really looking forward to it. I am not sure if I help myself as at times like this I just end up closing in on myself so end up not keeping in touch with friends anyway. It would just be nice if I felt I had a bit of a support network instead of muddling along by myself
Wasn't sure where to put this so have put it here in AIBU, am awaiting the flames! :o