Been seeing a guy since October. Went out with him originally about 11 years ago and been Fb friends for a few years then he asked me out again and we've now been out about 6/7 times. He lives about 40 miles away but doesn't drive and works 3 days on, 3 days off 10am-10pm plus I work and have a 5 year old son, so it hasn't always been that easy to see each other.
He's not brilliant at comunication and we've only ever spoken by text really. Sometimes he's chatty and other times he'll go for hours and hours without texting.
Unfortunately, I am quite insecure and haven't always handled the texting very well......I've gotten really stressed about it.
I've tried asking him about communicating a lottle more, whether I text too much etc and he's always ignored whatever i've asked and carried on as normal. It's always been me that's done the running with arranging dates etc. I've suggested phoning each other but he didn't answer that one. He's never told me how he's feeling etc I've tried being jokey and tried making light of everything. Whichever approach i've tried, i've never known where i've stood.
It's gotten to the stage where, through sheer frustration, i've ended up sending him long messages either via text or FB trying to explain my frustration and how i'm feeling.
Because he didn't answer and because i'm feeling very emotional as I like him so damn much, this morning I sent him one through Facebook that was really long but explained everything I was feeling. He didn't answer so I sent another 2 later on.
Eventually I got a reply back that said he honestly didn't know how he was feeling, but the distance and other goings on meant he couldn't be sure where it was going. That was it and i've sent him a further 3 texts and one on FB again as I don't know whether i'm dumped or not....am in total limbo!!
I have acted like and insecure and needy fool and I regret the stupid rambling messages i've sent him. I realise i've made him back off and if his mind's made up, there's nothing I can do.
Fully prepared to be told i'm a twat and have handled it terribly but really needed to just get it all down to be honest.
Can't stop thinking about him now and us having history makes it worse.
Any advice....including that i'm a stupid, needy fucking idiot :-(