FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOM!!!

[sarahinphuket]

Well, he's gone. I have told him I no longer want to be with him, cannot live this way anymore and that he has to go.

So he went on Saturday. He did come back briefly last night, as I think he thought I was bluffing as has happened before and I have just let him come back. But this time I made it perfectly perfectly clear. He is under no illusions.

Now I have the problem that all his stuff is still here, and he still has his keys. But I've told all my friends and family that we have separated - so this ensures that I will not go back on it. I have to stay strong on this for my DDs sake.

And you know what? I feel as though a weight has been lifted. THings have been so bad for so long, that I have already done all the grieveing for a lost relationship, now I just want to start my new life and get on with things. DD is much calmer too.

The only thing that worries me is what happens if he suddenly gets very angry when he is pissed, and then comes back. Am a bit freaked out by that idea. Also worried that he might steal DD and take here somewhere where I can't find her

BUT in the meantime I am free.

....so moving is not an option. I see. Well you seem to have a lots of plans on the go. With all that activity kicking in after christmas, you can think of the next week as a time to recharge your batteries. And the longer your husband doesn't hassle you, the more that fear should fade.

I know that I should be putting my feet up as much as possible before things get crazily busy again on 4th Jan when work starts - but I get bored of doing nothing, and I also feel guilty if I'm just sitting on my bum while my nanny is here.

I live in a beautiful place but there isn't a huge amount to do except for go to the beach...!

Oh well, I'll be fine. Tomorrow I'll be waiting to see if xh calls me so we can go to sign divorce papers - he has told me tonight that he would call, but I reckon he will turn his phone off all day and be conveniently unavailable. I just want to do it to clear my head. Once work starts again there is no way that I will have time to go.

Well
we went to sign the divorce papers today. he finally agreed, though he's not terribly happy about it I have to say.

Half an hour in the local government office and about 20p later......

well done missus

you've come a long way

see you in a couple of months!

Also, i wish i could be with you for 26th, but i am in my heart. Be careful of you go to the beach tho please, with all the terrorist threats for that day going on.

I will put some flowers on the beach for you when i go......am planning to go to Kamala for the official service (though the terrorist threats have freaked me out a bit) and then Bang Tao and Nai Yang - cos of the connections I have there.....

It will be a very emotional day, I;m sure.

Thank you, i would appreciate that. Kamala looked destroyed last time i saw, what's it like now?

I'm not sure to be honest I haven't been for a long time. There is still building going on at Nai Yang, though Bang Tao seems more or less back to normal - I was there yesterday.

I know about Nai Yang silly!

yeah yeah ok
cn't wait to see you again
then at least I have a valid excuse for going up there all the time!!

counting the days!

I'd better start practising to get better at drinking cocktails so that I can keep up with you! Damn I'm just going to have to go there more often.....shame, that

it's a hard job, but someone has to do it

yeh. never mind
it will be a hardship, but at least there is a nice view

for you!

here's hoping i get to appreciate the stunning view more often and in more detail.............

saucy!