DP just left. After a month of shite and more problems arising in his mind after we fixed the former ones (I don't believe they exist, I think he finds splitting his life between 2 locations too hard and has never suffered tragedy so bailed) he has gone. I saw the first ones, he was right, it had become too insular and I had become a bit needy which is not my standard mind set - we sorted that, I've been so much happier and rediscovered friends, gym etc - but also became a bit cagey with him and self-protective because he essentially shattered by heart 2 days after a perfect weekend in Venice. We get on so well day to day, never ever bickered and never had an argument in a year and a half or more until October then suddenly things fell to pieces. He now thinsk I'm having either a full blown affair or EA with a friend because of ommission (I don't mention him and we talk a lot) - I don't know why I've been this way but the friendship is platonic, it's just been nice to be able to speak to someone since my best friend disappeared in DP and he turned into a distant, cold person. This probably doesn't make sense, sorry, tears are stopping me seeing or thinking, but basically I came home last night after drinks with friends, he blew up at me so I left and went to this other man's house because he happens to live with a close friend and totally innocently slept on their sofa. I can't handle one day he loves me the next he still loves me but is unsure if it will ever work for whatever issues, it's made me so scared to trust him and have blocked him out a bit, but I do love him and now he has left. Sorry this makes no sense. I have a bottle of wine and loud music, and a lot of tissues.