I think I just need to rant, met DH when we were 25, married 18 months later and now have 2 DS, been married for 8 years.
He has been violent to me once, and I swore if he ever did it again I'd walk, that was over 4 years ago and it's never happened since, although he does have a temper and throw things.
He hates me going out on my own, but doesn't stop me, he will give throw away comments but not directly at me, he will shout as DS before I'm going out and cause a big drama. Called my friends sluts last year and said I was acting like them, but not directly called me one, and said I was acting like a divorced single woman and if that's what I wanted i could be. I was going out maybe once a month, having drinks, and did get drunk a couple of times, came in about 2.30am.
Have tried very hard to moderate my behaviour to what he likes, he thinks that I should just like going for meals and doesn't understand why I still like clubbing at my age.
I had a close male friend who he suspected was postitioning to hit on me, I've now had to end that friendship although I didn't want to.
When we're home he seems to find things to do, jobs round the house, nipping to the shops etc, generally busying himself until about 9pm.
We haven't had a conversation or really been in the same room before 10.30pm this week, and tonight he's gone out.
I don't even know what I'm asking for, I don't want to leave my sons are too young, I'd say I'm 70% happy 30% unhappy - but I'm so pissed off tonight, and really thinking is this it ? I did tell my SIL last year that if we didn't have kids I'd have walked, told him too in fact. Really don't know if I was serious though.
He was away earlier in the year and I really hoped he'd come back and tell me he'd met someone else so I could end it.
Am I just bored and this is where we need to work at it ?