Hi, I am a namechange regular.
The feeling towards my boss is only recent. He is a very succesfull and somewhat distant alpha-male type. We went on a trip together recently and got to know eachother better. I grew to really, relly like the man beneath the alpha-male cover. He is sweet, gentle and nice. But I have not really thought about him in that way until the last night of our trip. We went for a dinner with other people. He sat very close to me the whole night, and I caught him looking at me constantly in a shy, gentle way. He'd avert his gaze whenever I caught him staring. I know how childish and unfounded this sounds. But since that evening I cannot stop thinking about him. I did not expect that. I did not have feelings for him beforehands. But now I really, really fancy him, and the thought of not being with him fills me with so much sadness. I want to be with him but 1. He is my boss. 2. I am basing my feelings on one night of looking at eachother. I know how silly I sound. But I feel so sad when I am not around him.
I know what I want to do. But how? Is it silly to think that I can get together with him based on one night of stolen glances?