just everything

[luvlybunchofcoconuts]

I dont even know where to start!
My GP has put me on anti-depressants as of last friday, and i feel like there making me feel worse as well as a bit ill.
I broke down about a month ago, my baby was not sleeping well and not taking her feeds well and i think i just got to the end of my tether and cracked just as my husband was about to leave for work! I told him i was not happy and felt isolated and hate living where we do.
felt a bit better after getting that off my chest,and we had a long chat when he was finished work and he said we would look into moving back north.

Now i just feel i'm getting so unhappy here, there's more that happened just before we married and i lost my best friend because of it, and i've never been able to talk to anyone because ofit.

[LittleMissHissingFirecracker]

Trouble is, when you open up and talk to a guy about stuff, they think they have to fix it.

Perhaps try talking to him and telling him, I don't expect you to fix this, and it's not your place to, but I'm feeling overwhelmed and I need your practical help and emotional support.

I think the fact that he said he would look at moving back up north speaks volumes. he clearly cares for you, but perhaps doesn't know to show it.

Suggest that he can help practically with helping you with some of the tasks you have to do, when he can of course.

You can and will get through this. It's understandable you are feeling like this.

You need to try and do something every day that will help you fight this, to help you feel better about yourself.

If all you can do in a day is get yourself showered and dressed, that is still an achievement when depressed! You are doing well, are fighting this and will win.

Be kind to yourself,

[luvlybunchofcoconuts]

We've talked about it alot, but its still an issue, then he feels horrible and has a guilt trip.
As for moving bak north, he's not keen on it even though he's said he would.

I know that he does care and love me and i him, but i feel like there is something that has changed in me? i dont know what.

[luvlybunchofcoconuts]

well my husband working til 8pm tonight. I've just put my little tinkerbell down for the night, got a few candles on cosied up on couch watching strictly and xfactor.

Still feel like there is something changed? i dont know?

[mumonthenet]

well done coconuts, enjoy your evening, got any chocolate too?

could it be the Ad's still making you feel weird?

Once you start to feel better about yourself, and stronger, and less tired from sleepless nights, you will be able to decide what else you want to change in your life. Littlemisshissing has some good advice.

[luvlybunchofcoconuts]

I dont know if it is the AD's making me feel like that?
Still waiting for the sleepless nights! lol seem to be the opposite getting great sleep!

oh yes i have chocolate, bag of maltesers. yum.

[LittleMissHissingFirecracker]

Honey, depression does make you feel that. don't allow it head space, that's what it wants you to do.

You are the same person, but your chemicals are a little unbalanced, it's not you.

I remember the day the depression curtain came down, it was like night and day. But it's a false curtain. depression loves you to isolate you.

keep talking to your H, go talk to someone about your feelings about the texts etc, try and get yourselves on relate counselling, and work together to get through this.

Get H to commit to helping you more day to day, to give you a little slack, until you have gathered enough strength to fight this, and start to win.

You have a lot of hills to climb, but they can all be climbed, one step at a time.