Am just feeling incredibly let down and worried at present.
Potted history- am currently 39 weeks pregnant, terrified about giving birth to DC2 (can't say I had a 'traumatic' birth with DC1 but am just very afraid of the pain which was unbearable last time). Also live about 45 mins to hospital and am relying on DP to get me there safely.
When I was 3 month pregnantish I needed some very strong painkillers (codeine) for a flare up of a medical condition, luckily I only had to take a few but for some reason the GP gave me a Prescription for about 150, these have been put in a safe place in our home away from DC1. Dpknows they are addicitve as I've said a number of times 'dont take those for x y or z as they are too strong etc'.
Well last week I found one randomly on the lounge carpet where DC1 was playing. DP eventually admitted he had taken a few of the pills for 'pain' but could not account for how a tablet had come to be on the floor.
Last night I 'caught' him rustling around in the kitvhen and thought i saw him put something in one of the cupboards- had a quick look but couldnt see what.
This a.m I found him frantically searching in the cupboard- I asked him what he was up to and at first he lied and said he had put some of his own medication in there (although there would be no sensible reason for him to do this) he then accused me of 'taking' it out of the cupboard to 'punish' him. By this point I was very upset as was worried he had dropped or misplaced the medication, which he wouldnt admit to what it was, and would potentially be found by DC1.
He then popped out and whilst he was gone I checked the codeine tablets- to my horror he has finished off nearly all of them, nearly 150 tablets. I am not sure when he started taking them so cannot be certain of how many he has been taking a day.
Recently he has also been drinking a bottle of wine every night and basically by 8/8.30 every night he is in a deep sleep on the sofa, extremely difficult to wake up etc, so in terms of adult company I am on my own every evening. he has been saying its becaise he is so tired from work etc etc but it is clear to me know that it has been the combination of alcohol and medication. I am feeling really angry now and let down.
He has admitted to taking the pills now although still doesnt 'get' why I'm so upset as he says I wasn't going to need the pills (true but thats not the point). He says he has been taking them as he finds life 'hard', work v stressful etc etc.
Not sure what I want/need people to say really, maybe just some different perspectives on this behaviour and for me to know I am not 'unreasonable' for thinking it is not 'ok' for him to be doing this.