Im a 24 year old with a 4 year old child, im not with the dad and he’s not involved. I started talking to a guy and we’ve been seeing each other for 4 months, he’s a bit younger then me and im not sure I see myself marrying him or having a future with him but he’s nice to be around and has a good heart. We had sex earlier this month no protection just the pull out method (please no judgement) and fast forward to today I’m 3 days late on my period, I took a test earlier and it’s a massive positive I’m not sure what to do. Most people find out they’re pregnant and celebrate and have baby showers etc I’ve always wanted to do that as I never got to do it with my first child but I’m sadly not going to as like I mentioned I don’t see a future with this guy so don’t want a baby with him that’ll tie me down to him and make my number of children’s fathers increase, and I don’t think he’s ready to be a dad he can be mentally immature. Also my mental health has been extremely bad to the point my mums been helping watch my child so I’m not in the best mental state for another child right now and I know how having children effects your life and takes away any freedom you have I don’t think I can go through all that again right now. At the same time I do want more children and I did feel a tiny bit excited thinking being pregnant it’s just the circumstances aren’t great with my mental health, finances and the fact it’s with a guy I’m not very serious about which would add to the list of children fathers I have.
Really don’t know what to do and if I should have an abortion or not I don’t think I should have a child right now but even so it’s not an easy decision. No judgement please as my mental health isn’t the best.