I am 12 weeks pregnant. Have gone back and forth on to abort or not to abort. Most recently decided that if my prenatal test come back normal - I'd keep it. Today I got the call that everything looks normal. However, instead of feeling happy or relieved, I felt stressed. I believe the reason is I was cowardly hoping results would be abnormal and then it would be an easy decision. I know this is such an evil thought and likely means subconsciously I don't want this unplanned pregnancy, but when I do think of/lean toward having an abortion, I get a bit sad and start to cry.
Financially - can do it on my own. Have my own apartment. Stable job with good maternity leave, makes enough that say if I had a partner, he/she can be a stay home partner and we'd still live comfortably. Have savings that can last me a couple years even if I don't work.
Family support - havent told my parents yet. They are retired. I am confident they will help out if asked. They help out with my brothers kids.
Chance of having at least one child in the future - 90% for one live child as I froze my egg a couple years back. So I'm not as worried about what if this is my only chance of being a mom.
Baby daddy - same age, we known each other for only 2 months when I found out I was pregnant and we are not in a relationship. (I understand some might want to comment you guys should have known better, but that ship has sailed). He initially said he was supportive regardless which decision I make. Now he is back and forth but more toward the abortion option. We don't talk much so am excluding him from the equation in my decision making.
I am trying yo base my decision on if I can be a good mom, do it on my own, and offer the baby a decent life. I know the 'baby' is also a big part of the decision I'd make though he/she can't really share any thought - im worried that the baby might grow up and be unhappy.
Have read similar posts on mumsnet so posting one of my own.