Sorry if I sound silly here. I feel guilty overall really. I don’t know how far along I am (I think about 6-7 weeks? My last period date and positive result don’t add up so I’m being scanned) and I’m due to discuss my abortion options tomorrow. If I’m under 10 weeks the process starts tomorrow.
Me and DP have decided it’s the right thing to do sadly for so many reasons. Our first baby isn’t even 1 yet, the money pressure would be too much, I’ve just started a new job and we’ve finally just gotten to a good place in our relationship.
but I just seen something how it’s infant loss awareness week and I just felt awful I’m feeling guilty and nervous anyway. But the thought that this week so many women sit and think about the times they lost the babies they wanted and here I am having a termination :(
But I don’t think mentally I could cope with another baby so close now. My 9mo doesn’t sleep I’m severely sleep deprived and have to work and live I couldn’t do it x2 I’d collapse (which I have recently)
I just needed to vent. No one knows we’re doing this it’s just between us but I just need to get my thoughts out