From the day of my dating scan it was clear there was something wrong with my baby. I already have one beautiful baby boy and the differences between the 2 where evident from the start.
As much as I refused to believe anything could be wrong, this very much wanted and loved baby has been diagnosed with Edward's syndrome (trisomy 18)
My heart broke when I herd the news & i already feel so empty inside knowing that my child is suffering and will continue to suffer.
I do not believe in abortions but today have made the decision to go ahead with a termination only due to the knowledge of how many complications my poor pheonix has already.
I feel awful.
After researching I wanted to know people's personal experiences of terminations and if medical or surgical was best for them.
I will be 14 weeks when I say goodbye and have so far decided on medical termination. Many people have said they chose to have a surgical procedure so they could be put to sleep and not remember the trauma from the experience.
I wonder if putting myself through labour like pain for several hours to be allowed to cremate my feotus is worthwhile or if waking up at having it over with will be easier to deal with. Trying to block out the reality, and regretting not having the opportunity to see my baby to me seems worse than accepting it and remembering the pain of the procedure. What do you guys think?
I feel for me that delivering the pregnancy tissue is best regardless of pain, trauma etc. The baby is still a part of me and I feel in order for me to get real closure I need to see my baby before we cremate and day goodbye to a life we wish could thrive.