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Want to talk about my positive abortion experience

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flowerpotwomen · 04/06/2019 12:38

I had a termination a month ago. When I say 'positive experience' obviously it's not something I would ever have wanted to do. But it happened.
I had a medical abortion at 9 weeks and was expecting hell after reading horrendous stories on the internet, so I'm putting this out there for balance.

Deliberated for a few days after discovering I was pregnant and decided I couldn't continue with the pregnancy for many reasons. Rang BPAS and they booked me in for an appointment in 4 weeks time. I took the appointment, though a few days later realised that would put me past the threshold for being able to have a medical abortion at home, so cancelled it.

Called Marie Stopes who got me a quicker appointment at a local NHS hospital. I went a few weeks later and discovered I was 7 weeks and 5 days pregnant. There was a friendly older midwife as well as a trainee present. They did an internal scan which I was scared of, but I barely felt it and it was done very discretely. She didn't even look as she did it, and she didn't show me the screen. They talked me through my options. I decided on the medical abortion and wanted to go home to pass the pregnancy rather than do a day in hospital.

I came back the following week, on Tuesday. I took a pill orally and was told this would help to end the pregnancy, some nausea and spotting is normal. I didn't have any side effects and went about my day as normal.

The next day, Wednesday, I came back in. I was given four pills and told I could take them orally or have them inserted into my vagina. I decided to take them orally. They also gave me a suppository antibiotic. I was terrified of this but was told how to insert it myself and did it in the bathroom - it was fine and couldn't feel it after 5 minutes.
I was told to expect cramps, pain, and heavy bleeding. I was only in there 15 minutes.

My sister picked me up and took me home. I went straight to bed around 10am. I watched Netflix and read magazines pretty much all day, and drank lots of water and ate snacks. It was quite relaxing to be honest! Around 1pm I started feeling light cramping, nothing bad, but I took 2 ibuprofen and 2 paracetamol anyway as a sort of preventative.

Around 2pm I felt a gushing sensation, went to the toilet and a large amount of blood came out as well as some sort of sac or clot. I didn't really look but I could feel it coming. It didn't hurt at all. This happened every 30 minutes for the next few hours. I had no pain at all, just occasionally felt the like blood was going to come, went to the toilet, and it did. I never flooded my pad or anything like that. By about 5pm I was just bleeding like a normal period, changing my pad every 3 or so hours.

I slept really well that night. I did sleep on a towel just in case as I do leak even on normal periods when I use pads which is why I usually use a mooncup.

After 3 days the bleeding went down to being very light - I just wore a panty liner every day for the following 2 weeks in case of any blood. There was usually a small amount.

Took a pregnancy test 3 weeks after the date of the abortion and it came back negative.

I have no sense of regret or sadness about the situation - it wasn't the right time for another baby, I was just relieved that termination was an option for me. It was so much simpler and less painful than I thought. The staff in the hospital were kind respectful and non-judgemental, too.

If anyone has any questions I'm happy to answer them.

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NinaJames · 21/12/2020 14:37

@Ajjxx how you doing lovely?

I am booked for the surgical one tomorrow. OH is really unhappy about it though which is making things harder to deal with!

Ajjxx · 21/12/2020 15:03

Oh bless you 😔 I'm doing ok, off to collect the pills on Wednesday and planning on starting the process on boxing day. I hope it goes well for you tomorrow, and your oh doesn't make it too difficult xx

NinaJames · 22/12/2020 21:11

@Ajjxx hope you're doing ok.

I had the surgical termination today under local anaesthetic and I wouldn't recommend it.

Hope yours goes as well as it can x

Ajjxx · 22/12/2020 23:01

Oh was it horrific?! How are you feeling? Feel free to PM me if you want xxx

NinaJames · 23/12/2020 04:15

@Ajjxx

Thanks - I think I have PM you? I've never used it before so may be wrong.... if not please send me one so I can reply!!

Sorry, I'm absolutely clueless 👀😬

Ajjxx · 27/12/2020 23:53

So wanted to add my story in, I collected the tablets earlier this week, took the first on Christmas night, and the 2nd dose of 4 this morning around 8am, within half an hour cramps started and I passed the actual pregnancy R
Around 11am. Have had awful cramps and heavy bleeding when up and about but have been taking it easy and has now slowed right down. It has gone a lot better than I was expecting and I am feeling ok about the whole experience.. for anyone stumbling across this thread looking for experience and perhaps reassurance as you find yourself in the same situation, I would like to state I am 37, with 3 children and I never thought I would be in the position where I would even consider a termination, but these things happen and if you feel this is the right decision for you then take comfort that others have been here and come through ok xx

Louise1296 · 28/12/2020 08:30

@Ajjxx hi I’m glad to have stumbled across this post. Hope you are feeling abit better today? I too have just found out last night I’m pregnant with no5. I feel awful but a termination is right for our family. DH has been on the waiting list for snip since March and my youngest is only 1.the whole thing just feels like a big mistake. I’m going to ring up today to try and get it sorted.I’m hoping I am 4 weeks but can’t 100% remember having a period in November so may be 8 :( thanks for sharing your experience it’s made me feel I’m not alone. X

Ajjxx · 28/12/2020 09:42

I'm glad you've found this thread and it has helped you realise there are lots of us in the same boat. I would highly recommend Marie Stopes if you are in an area they cover, they were great with me I had several consultations and they also offer counselling if you need it. If you are hoping for a medical termination you need to be quick as it's only safe until 10 weeks, however without knowing exact dates you may need to have a scan etc to determine how far you are, which may rule it out. Good luck xx

YnysMon20 · 28/12/2020 21:33

Hi @Ajjxx thanks for sharing your experience - it’s really reassuring. My consultation isn’t until the 6th, the wait is driving me mad. I’m firm in my decision but I’m so sick. The anxiety isn’t helping either as I’m terrified of the process. I almost wish I could do the medical at the clinic so they could confirm it’s all gone as it should.

Tryingtobebetterthaniwasyester · 07/01/2021 14:07

Just want to thank people on this page. I'm currently going through this and feel shit and scared. I'm having an at home medical abortion. This morning I took the first tablet and tomorrow I take the second lot. In so so scared. I had a miscarriage at 13 weeks 10 years ago so I think I know what to expect blood was but I went I to hospital when that happened. I'm at home with my daughter whilst partner works today and tomorrow. I'm so scared if something goes wrong I'll feel to embarrassed to call anyone. I'm just scared and embarrassed. Your posts have helped though

Mamof · 25/02/2021 18:02

Hi @flowerpotwomen it's good to hear you had a positive experience, I've been through it recently for various reasons not the right time for my family but and I am still struggling with the emotions and what ifs hopefully can come to terms with it x

Mamof · 25/02/2021 19:12

@LuannC @moofolk @flowerpotwomen @Absofuckinlutely @Tinyteatime @MarieQueenofScots @Emmapeeler @@Ajjxx @Lenooo @moofolk @Lenooo glad I seen this post thank you for sharing x I've just been through the medical recently and wish I seen this post before for some support, wondering how you all are dealing with the emotional aftermath post termination if you've experienced it at all? while our reasons for terminating are still there I'm finding it hard to come to terms with it most days xx

Mamof · 25/02/2021 19:16

@Tryingtobebetterthaniwasyester I've just found this thread too, how did you get on? x

Absofuckinlutely · 25/02/2021 22:28

Hi @Mamof just seen your tag. First of all I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. It's a truly hard, draining time. How long has it been since yours?

As to how I'm getting on, it's been about 18 months. At first I was a sobbing guilty mess. I definitely didn't WANT to abort any baby of mine. I shed a few more tears in the week after, and the guilt lingered on longer. But the relief that it was over with did help balance that. For me the indecision and worry was probably the worst part, but afterwards I was able to focus on moving forward.

I hope I don't sound unfeeling, believe me I absolutely agonized over the decision. But on balance it was for the best, I feel sure of it. I do get the odd guilty pang and wonder "what if" but not enough that I've ever wanted to turn back the clock, especially as time goes on.

Of course you're struggling, it's massive to go through. Nobody undertakes such a thing lightly and it goes against all our instincts, which is why it's brave. I really hope you manage to come to terms with it - I'm sure you will. As you say, your reasons haven't gone away so try to remember that. I really believe a decision can be horrible, but still be right. Thanks

Tryingtobebetterthaniwasyester · 25/02/2021 23:19

How long after did you get your period I'm week 7 and still haven't 😭

Mamof · 26/02/2021 01:56

@Absofuckinlutely thank you for replying x mine was in December just before Christmas, horrible time to be going through with it but with the medical being early I didn't want to leave it any longer, just having my period now so I suppose it's hormones makes it all more upsetting and getting through Christmas for my dc was tough, I know it's hard but you sound really brave and that's exactly how I'm feeling pangs of guilt and wondering but like you said it wasn't something we wanted but needed for the best, thank you it's lovely to hear positively from someone who's been through it Xx

Mamof · 27/02/2021 10:53

@Emmapeeler and @Bluthbanana thanks for posting, I'm in the same situation just been through it in December and like you both two dc is my remaining healthy limit it helps to see we're not alone Xx

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