My goodness, what a terrible situation for you, you poor darling.
I have had two terminations, neither was a planned pregnancy, but with both, I just knew it would be in no ones best interests. The first, I was fond of the guy and he adored me, but it was much more serious for him than for me. He was older and had never wanted kids. I didn’t tell him actually.
The second time, I was engaged. We ended up not marrying but not because of the termination, years later. We had a whirlwind romance but our relationship just wasn’t ready for it.
And on the other side, my mother had my brother after a one night stand, the guy turned up a few months after the birth and my mother stayed with him in an abusive relationship (she was the abuser) for many years and it has destroyed our family quite frankly.
It’s such a personal decision. No one should tell you what is right and what is wrong. The option, I believe, gives everyone the power to make a decision about the course of their lives that sadly not everyone has. You will not be alone, there is support everywhere for women who have had experiences like yours. I hope you get some support here, but there might be other boards that are more sensitive to your specific story xxx much love xxx