Thanks guys, so appreciate your support. it helps to reflect and get things clearer.
Sorry you are also having a rough ride tugs, can you get an interim test in 2 weeks? I can imagine you are finding it all stressful too. but, your t4 definately a good level for baby!
calmer now, doc pointed out my anxiety about it all (work/slapped cheek in mix too) probably making me panic more which I agree - mini the 16 is/was fine for baby at that point, because they rarely test normally it I have no idea what is 'well' for t4 for me, esp as it may have been the brand of thyroxine, which hospital doc said sounded like it was due to very fast drop in tsh after changing brands. I definately had bad brain fog/ constant sleeping after this though and took a while to feel better. this is what I fear, and maybe ruminatimg about but I suppose I don't know if it was lower earlier on etc or if was the stress or other preg hormones - prob all 3! I guess I have to remember t4 apparently fluctuates a lot.
I know what you mean tugs - still wonder about 200/175 and got upset again last night. But on reflection (with a brave head on ) the 25 drop over a month has only resulted in going from 20 to 18.6 (but tsh not budging) so I'm going to be very brave and try it but keep a close eye on energy etc. I do feel very well energy wise but have noticed I'm only sleeping for 5 hours at night this week. There's still time to go back up a little if nec, but encouraging that others are feeling better later on - plus am 26 weeks and from what the woman at the meeting said, and doc yesterday baby will be making his own now so there is a possibility I won't need as much any way? Maybe why your tsh has gone down fluffy? (i do love your nickname!)
I am aware I really am contradicting myself from earlier posts! its just been so bloody confusing being a sort of detective over it all - both the idea of it being unstable as well as its actual effects really affects my confidence and anxiety due to past experiences, the not knowing/understanding/being diagnosed aged 20ish really affected me, as have subsequent wobbles. The gp showed me the initial screen in 1998 which had very high 'thyroglobulin ab' but neither he or I had a clue about that! Prob means autoimmune?
The gp has been quite blunt about not going back to work - it would only have been another 6-8 weeks and I am now realising its not actually fair on the kids I teach, a small class of very autistic children, if I attempt to go back and then fail - in Sept theres always potential for teething probs behaviour wise and we have to be so on the ball, it's always a very hard first term, emotionally, physically and mentally. (Oh and must remember I've had no RA but that's a different ranty thread!) Not found it easy to accept that and actually quite low about it. But at least I don't have the added stress and pressure of that in top so if I do feel worse it will be ok.
Apologies for the detailed rambling, it helps to get it right in my head, and thanks again for your support xxxx