God's sake. I found out I was pregnant with Lottie when I was just over 4 months, I didn't realise how lucky that was until I fell pregant this time round.
I had the early scare where GPO and I both thought I was 10 weeks and scan showed I was only 5 so either my dates were wrong of baby was 10 weeks and hadn't grown fro 5 weeks so wasn't a vciable pregancy; all turned out to be okay but went throught hell.
Waiting for my next scan now I'm about 9 weeks and haven't heard so chased hospital myself. They heard of me and am being seen by head consultant. Nice but straight away I feel like I'm a special case cos of this, due to Lottie having DS, and that makes me jittery. Then she says 'he hasn't seen your letter yet, he's only in Tuedays so we'll show it to him this afternoon', and then 5 minutes later my mobile rings asking me could I urgently fax over the results of the 2 scans I've had. Why does it all feel so..... worrying??
Also I've been feeloing really sock and really tired every day, esp in the afternoons. Friday i felt the worst yet. Then Saturday throught to today I feel fine. No sickness, no tiredness, I'm not even sure my boobs hurt that much. I was looking forward to feeliong normal again and now i am, at only 9 weeks I'm paranoid. I want to feel sick then I'll know everythng is ok.
This is no laugh at all. I'm not having fun and I want to be unworried and know for a fact, beyond any doubt at all that I am healthily pregnant. i'm back to taking deep breaths and having tight shoulders. I'm trying not to but it's not easy. Please let it all be okay and roll on 3 weeks so I can just get past the scary bit and then roll on the next 6 months.
Sorry, nothing any of you can or should say, just sounding off to the only place I can, I'm okay really, well i'm not, but i am, iykwim!