Hi everyone, I got positive tests 5th october.
I got a 2-3 on Monday and by Friday i had a 3+ .
I was really happy about it, and now im unsure and worried.
I had an ectopic last year so I have a scan booked in on the 19th to see if baby is in the right place.
Baby dad, emotionally unavailable, one minute wants it, next doesnt.
He spent 2 years going between me and his ex (who's also pregnant and due in january) she got pregnant while me and him had properly split earlier in the year.
When we found out Monday he was happy. Wanted the baby, never wanted the one with her. He was selling his house to come near to me, and now hes changed his mind. He's staying put , for her. Then told me to havr the baby but he won't be around for me like I want him to be.
Him and his ex have had a toxic volatile 18 year relationship , on and off all the time. They are just as bad as each other.
Whereas I am the complete opposite to her. I guess some of me can't comprehend why he would wsnt to be with someone like her, after everything hes told me about her. She aborted his baby 4 years ago at 17 weeks without his knowledge.
Im scared, scared in case its ectopic , scared to do it alone, scared If Ill cope or not. Ive already got 2 children, 6 and 8. With an emotionally abusive father, they don't currently see going through the court system. Ive no family around because they don't like him!
Ny mental health isn't great and im awaiting therapy.
So it is just me and the kids, and a potential baby!
Such a mess !! And I just don't know what to do for the best.