I really need a place to offload. Our fertility story has been gut wrenching. 6 years of fertility treatment, a lovely 4 year old and two subsequent losses which involved sepsis. My last loss was last summer.
Due to my most recent loss and the severity of the sepsis and subsequent health issues, my partner and I made the decision for him to have a vasectomy. He had this in February.
Prior to my loss in the Summer, I never had regular periods and never ovulated. From around October, I’ve had monthly periods.
my partners vasectomy sample check is due the end of June. We’ve used condoms whenever we’ve had sex.
I started feeling unwell around a week ago and yesterday my nipples were agony - I’ve taken a test and I’m pregnant. I had PTSD from my last loss due to how traumatic it was and only recently finished 4 months of EMDR.
To make matters worse, we have recently sold our home and are moving areas in the Summer, for my son to start a specialist school. We are going to live with my wider family for a while, and have just put an offer in on a new home in the area. This plan came about after my partner and I re-evaluated our future, when we agreed siblings weren’t going to happen.
How has this happened? My partner is adamant we are getting an abortion - I know realistically it’s not ideal, in terms of my health, logistically, financially….but how can I get an abortion after so many years of desperately wanting my bfp? And only having one baby to show for my previous bfp? It doesn’t feel right to just end this now it’s not convenient.
I feel like it’s meant to be. Maybe I’m filled with hormones, but how can I make peace with this? I know if I just go along with partners decision for abortion, I will never get over it. I would be doing it based on his decision - I almost feel I don’t get a say.
I can’t talk to anyone about this in person. I could really use a listening ear, and someone to talk (gentle) sense into me please.