Ok, first actual post and I’ve put it here because I genuinely don’t know where it belongs.
I’ve never liked anything with minced meat (also never been much of a red meat person) - the only way I’ve been able to eat bolognese/chilli has been to have soy mince. Smell/appearance etc has always been massively off putting - I was veggie vegan for years in my early 20s which is a while back now. Diet etc otherwise hasn’t changed.
The last 6-8 weeks I cannot get enough of beef bolognese. M&S stuff from a jar - on pasta or straight from the jar (cold - I mean I’m disgusted with myself) I’ve been eating it in secret. I made 4kg of bolognese sauce in my slow cooker with actual meat. And ate it all. It’s any excuse. I wanted to eat the raw steak in the fridge.
I’ve always been a fish person and currently can’t stand the taste or texture of things I previously loved. My partner bought me mussels last week and I ran away and threw up when they were put in front of me. I’ve been the person doing all you can eat mussels previously.
I’m exhausted, I’ve rapidly put on weight I’m struggling to lose and all I can think of is bolognese. I’m mid 30s. Tests have come up negative but it wouldn’t be the first time and it’s not out of the realms of possibility.
I’m literally googling places with an all night shop that I can get a jar of the M&S bolognese and eat it to myself. I feel like I’m losing my mind.
Either I’m losing it and deficient as hell in something or (dare I think it) I am? I just need to scream this because I’ve never had this kind of compulsion before.
Go right ahead and tell me I’m a crazy bolognese freak/delusional.