Terrified for my 12 week scan tomorrow 😔

[Bulbasaur90]

Hi all,
I have my first scan tomorrow. I'm around 11 weeks (long cycle so dates don't match to LMP) with pregnancy 4. We have a 10 year old son and we have lost two babies in the last year. I can't help but be scared for tomorrow and the possibility that we're going to get bad news again. My husband is trying to reassure me and I know that statistically things are more likely to be positive but I just can't help it. Everytime I think about it I feel like crying because I can't stand the thought of it. The closer it gets the more scared I'm feeling. I just can't shake it off.
I just needed to get this out of my head because I feel like screaming and no-one else knows about the pregnancy yet so I have no one else to talk to about it.

I think this is just a way of protecting your emotions. I lost 2 babies around 12 week scan time and the next pregnancy, it wasn't really until after the 20 week scan that I really relaxed as by then I thought by then baby was pretty much viable whatever happened so stood more of a chance. I think it is a natural thing but hard to live with. Hoping all goes well for you xxx

@Bulbasaur90 not yet! Think baby is too comfy in there