Meet the Other Phone. A phone that grows with your child.

Meet the Other Phone.
A phone that grows with your child.

Buy now

Please or to access all these features

Pregnancy

Talk about every stage of pregnancy, from early symptoms to preparing for birth.

Terrified of giving birth

41 replies

Ginevere · 13/06/2021 11:40

I know this has been done to death, but I’m sitting here at 37 weeks and it all feels very real all of a sudden.

I’m not good with pain, and I get myself worked up easily if I’m scared, so I’m worried I’m going to make it worse. I’ve tried reading lots of positive birth stories, but without fail they all say ‘my first birth was terrible, but my second…’ or ‘after a traumatic first birth, I decided to…’ which does NOT help me.

I’m convinced it’s going to be horrible and frightening. I’m scared about the loss of control, all the things that could go wrong, the uncertainty. Sometimes I even convince myself I’m going to die in childbirth; I’ve even written my husband a list in case that happens. I’ve always had very mild periods, and no period pain, which doesn’t help as I feel like I’m not prepared for contractions.

I don’t want a C section as the idea of my stomach being cut open is even worse to me. I don’t want an epidural as I’m scared of losing feeling in my body and not being able to sense the baby. But I also can’t imagine dealing with hours of contractions, bleeding, tearing. Im so frightened I’m struggling to sleep and I keep getting randomly weepy. I feel like a bit of a failure already tbh, and it’s really putting a dark light on the arrival of my baby.

I don’t know what I’m hoping for really- maybe some assurance that it won’t be as bad as I think? That thousands of women do it every day and to get over myself? Anything from someone whose done it would be reassuring, as a lot of my friends won’t tell me as ‘they don’t want to scare me’ which is a terrifying thing to hear in itself. I also had a woman in a cafe randomly tell me giving birth gave her PTSD and she’s refused to have a second, which was awful to hear also.

OP posts:
Eileen101 · 13/06/2021 11:50

You'll be fine. I completely understand the fear of the loss of control, but I didn't actually end up feeling like that.
Have you figured out what pain relief you'd like if you're worried about the contractions? Have all the pain relief you want/are allowed! It's not something to be shied away from.
If I may, in both of my labours, I found water to be so helpful. I'd specified I would like the labour pool but hadn't realised just how powerful it would be for the contractions for my first.
I think people getting PTSD from labour are probably few and far between... Does your birth partner know what you want? They can advocate for you if you feel the loss of control.

HumunaHey · 13/06/2021 12:13

I'm currently pregnant with my second. I'm a little nervous but definitely not terrified!

My first birthing experience was a very positive one. So much so that I've put the same birthing plan together as what I had with my first, although I understand things will change.

Since you don't want a C section or epidural, you can have a really active birth and even a water birth (or just use of a birthing pool during labour). I had an active birth, used a birthing pool and gave birth kneeled over a yoga ball. I had no tears and felt right as rain pretty much soon after giving birth. I truly believe this is because the warm water in the birthing pool helped to relax me and that I gave birth upright as certain positions reduce tearing. The actual pushing stage wasn't painful, just the contractions beforehand, but the birthing pool really helped.

I also ate dates and drank raspberry leaf tea from 34 weeks as it supposedly helps ripen the cervix ready for birth. No clue if it helped but since I had a positive experience last time, I'm foing the same again.

You are stronger than you know and honestly, when it all hspoens, your body kind of takes over. You can do it 🙌

PerspicaciousGreen · 13/06/2021 13:01

I am very bad at dealing with regular pain. I cry if I stub my toe. I have bad period pains and am awful with them. Can't cope at all.

But I found labour to be totally different. I copied well. Yes, it bloody hurt, but it was qualitatively different from "normal" pain. I would rather have a late labour contraction than stub my toe! Mine get regular quite quickly, so with a contraction timer app my husband could tell me when to expect one and how long it would be, so I could count the seconds until it started releasing.

My biggest tip for labour is to make a big list of every pain relief option you might consider and put it in order you'd like to try and give your husband a copy. Once one stops doing it for you, move onto the next. It's very individual. I never had any massage or anything because I hated being touched because I couldn't concentrate properly on the pain. (Yes, this sounds nuts! But I found labour pain to be very different to regular pain, where I would be pleased to be distracted.) But I never made it that far up my list because I progressed quicker than expected. Still peeved I never got in the birth pool!

First time, I had a spinal, like a one shot epidural, to be sewn up afterwards as it was a bit internal and they wanted to take their time. I didn't like it at all, but some women love it. I adore gas and air. It's like magic for me. Allows me to feel everything but rise above it.

Second time I had one tear and seriously, I bitched about the anaesthetic injection more than labour.

I would try not to worry about tearing. Many women do but these days it truly is no biggie most of the time. I had a few stitches and recovered 100%. Once I'd been stitched up I had no pain from them at all and the stitches just dissolved and fell out without me noticing. I have had zero ongoing issues.

I read the introduction of a hypnobirthing book (I meant to read it all, honestly!) and while I didn't intend to go without any pain relief, I still found the framing of labour very helpful. I particularly remember thinking about how I had a finite number of contractions to go until the baby was out, and each one ticked one off the list.

Also, pushing is GREAT. Dilating hurts, but it starts off just a little ouch quite far apart then works its way up to hurting a lot and close together but you still get a breather in between. I had an 11h labour first time but I was at a 1-3 on the pain scale for a few hours, then 4-6 for a few hours, etc. And then pushing is fantastic because it completely takes the pressure off something inside me and it feels glorious and is WAY less painful than late stage contractions. Crowning hurt a fair bit with #1, possibly because I completely disobeyed the midwife's instructions to stop pushing because at that point the idea seemed insane, and hurt not at all with #2. But please, look forward to pushing. I had to push for quite a while with #1 because I couldn't feel what was effective and what wasn't, and it was really tiring, but it still felt really satisfying.

I did find my first birth traumatic. Sorry. But I don't want to lie to you. However, it was nothing to do with the physical aspects of giving birth and mostly to do with how I was treated postnatally. (Really unusually poorly.) And it was hard, dealing with that. But there are specialist birth trauma therapists and I loved mine and went on to have a fantastic second birth at a different hospital. I think my trauma was about being treated badly as an anxious new mother, not to do with the birth. I mention it because it really is something you can avoid and/or move on from with the right support.

The interesting thing about labour is the extent to which your body gets on with it and you're just along for the ride.

BillyShears · 13/06/2021 13:09

My first Labour was lovely. I am not brave!!! Try to go into it with low expectations (it will hurt) but an open mind (I’ll take whatever relief I need at the time). I know it’s easier said than done, I used to have a lot of One Born Every Minute nightmares when I was pregnant with my first. And try to remember too that it’s only one day.... there will be pain but the moment they hand you your baby is like nothing else. Realistically in (at most) five weeks it’ll all be a memory and you’ll have your baby. Good luck!

Curiosity101 · 13/06/2021 13:38

It's not too late to do a hypnobirthing course.

I 100% recommend courses.thepositivebirthcompany.co.uk/p/the-positive-birth-company-digital-pack/

It'll give you lots of tangible advice on the birth process, techniques to keep you calm and focused etc. It also gives you access to their Facebook group which is full of positive birth stories to help normalise and eleviate some of the fear of the unknown.

I've gone from scared/worried to (almost) looking forward to giving birth. Please give it a go!

Curiosity101 · 13/06/2021 13:44

Just to add the Facebook group has plenty of FTMs sharing their positive birth stories for their first births!

MissingTheMoonlight · 13/06/2021 13:58

I think it's one of those things that is worse to think about than to actually go through.
When you're in the moment you'll realise you are able to cope.
Assuming you'll be in a hospital, you will be surrounded by people caring for you and your baby and giving you options to relieve the pain.
FWIW I had an epidural and found it was quick and relatively painless. I would definitely get one again.
I did end up having an EMCS in the end as my labour didn't progress. Recovery wasn't ideal (I had quite a bit of pain when moving) but at least then baby was here!

BuffySummersReportingforSanity · 13/06/2021 14:21

My first birth was a great experience. Straightforward, empowering, unassisted, no medication - just the birth pool. I didn't tear and got up and walked down to postnatal just a bit sore in my back and shoulders, like after a good workout. I'd do it again any day. I felt absolutely amazing afterwards.

Not every experience is like mine, obviously, but it does happen.

FTM91 · 13/06/2021 14:28

If you do one thing in the next few weeks OP, read The Positive Birth Book by Milli Hill!

Understanding the science behind birth, hormones etc will hopefully make you feel much more in control and therefore confident about the birth.

WoMandalorian · 13/06/2021 14:31

Just so you know, epidurals aren't the same as they were back in the day. Some epidurals you can even still walk around while having them!
I had epidurals for both of mine and could still move my legs both times. With my first I couldn't feel contractions but it was very very long and I was probably delirious from lack of sleep for 2 days to be honest. The second I could definitely tell when to push and basically just got on with it while the midwives handed over 😅
I'm having my 3rd this year and might try without the epidural but I'm really just trying not to think about it until it's happening 😂
Congratulations and I hope you have a calming birth experience 🙂💐

sarah13xx · 13/06/2021 14:32

@Ginevere aw bless you ☹️ You sound exactly like me. The only difference being I’ve known from the start I’d prefer a c-section due to all of that. I’m 32 weeks and now it’s getting closer I’m also dreading the section but just couldn’t bring myself to do the alternative so there’s a baby in there that needs out somehow 🙈 There definitely are people who have good stories though! I was watching Katie Murnane’s birth stories on YouTube of her two children (she’s pregnant again) and she just made it seem so controlled and easy. I think both were under an hour and there was no big drama 🙈 That did make me feel better that if I was to go into natural labour and it was too late for my section or something I could potentially cope with that. Have you thought about a water birth, hypnobirthing etc? I did a c-section hypnobirthing course on the mindful birth group that was really good, there’s one for a natural birth too. I hope it goes well and you’re one of these people with the positive story to tell ❤️

JewelGarden · 13/06/2021 14:40

If it helps, I found contractions to be more like you know when you get a cramp in your shin and it's like fucking ow, your muscles all get tight but you know it'll be over in a minute or so? Much more like that than period pains.

8dpwoah · 13/06/2021 14:43

I think the fact you've thought deeply about this and are aware that it won't necessarily be twinkly lights and 'surges' will stand you in excellent stead OP. Of my friends the ones who just assumed all would be ok and had rigid birth plans were the ones who found coping if/when things deviated much harder.

I had a really easy pregnancy with DD first time but had what most people would consider a horrible time with her labour. I'll spare the details as they won't help but you know what? After we'd been home a day or so I felt 'ok' and after a week I felt 'pretty good' despite having everything short of a C-section to deal with, including infection. I had never been in hospital before and have a crap pain threshold but we went with things as they unfolded and all came out pretty much unscathed.
I'm now having a mildly stressful pregnancy number two so I'm hoping I get a textbook birth but do you know what, if we go the same way again with this one, so be it. As long as the outcome is good for everyone, you do what you need to do and you get through it.

I had a massive fear of the unknown and my unknown now is a non-epidural spontaneous birth so in some ways I'm more nervous of that than having another induction!

Do as much research and prep as you feel comfortable with, go into it with your mind open, listen to the medical professionals who have seen it all before, but don't be afraid to ask all the questions you need to- there's absolutely no such thing as a stupid question when the time comes. As I say I had a horrible time with my first but not so horrible that it wasn't all worth it and hasn't put me off another one. First trimester grimness was far more off-putting if I'm completely honest! 🙂

Becstar90 · 13/06/2021 14:49

The not wanting an epidural because of the loss of feeling, I totally understand that, I also had horrible thoughts like what if I never get the feeling back Confused I didn't end up having one, I actually thought giving birth was harder than what it was for me, I was 10cm dilated when they last checked me and they told me to start pushing and I was like whattt? I found it bearable, still hurt but I would totally have another baby without anything. Just relax, it'll be fine. It's scary because you haven't gone through it and I read some horror stories before giving birth to my first, google is not your friend when you're pregnant and looking up that stuff.

Ginevere · 13/06/2021 14:49

Thank you so much everyone. These comments have really helped, I’m already feeling much better. I’ve just ordered some raspberry leaf tea, downloaded that course and ordered the book. So nice to hear some positive stories too.

I’m currently leaning towards a water birth with gas and air, so it’s great to hear they are good. Ive made my husband aware of this too- and also that, if I start screaming for it, I’m down for an epidural. I’m not going to be a martyr if I can’t take it!

Thanks so much again guys- I will re- read these comments if I have a wobble.

OP posts:
Harriedharriet · 13/06/2021 14:52

Of course you are scared - it is your first birth, and you do not know exactly what is ahead. This is normal. You coud even say it is smart!
A few things to remember though - you are going to finally meet your baby, this is very exciting.
You will have a qualified team around you. There is medication to help not hinder. And most of all, your incredible body has hormones that kick in to help.
You may have lots of ideals of how you want it to go - good! But if the ideal does not happen for whatever reason hold onto the fact that you want a safe delivery above all else.
The very best of luck, and please come back to tell us your good news!

RachShad · 13/06/2021 15:05

I'm feeling the exact same, im nearly 36 weeks now and getting really anxious. The thought of labour has always scared me ever since I was younger, I always said I don't know how I'm going to be able to do that!! But I just knew if i wanted a baby it had to be done, has to come out somehow haha, im trying to just take everything as it comes. If I overthink about it too much, I could make myself have a panic attack 😂🙈
When the day comes, just try to deal with it best you can and take any pain relief available. I really don't want an epidural either, but i suppose if the pain got so bad you'd take anything? I'm sure we will be okay, like you said previously women do this every single day, it's what we where made to do. Let me know how you get on closer to the time and I will do the same!! :)

sillysausages99 · 13/06/2021 15:14

My advice is to read and try to absorb lots of positive birth stories

Have look at hypnobirthing

I did it around 34/36 weeks

Look up positive birth movement

Hire a Tens machine from Boots

Keep active. Walking and swimming is good

During early Labour try to stay active and upright

Curiosity101 · 13/06/2021 15:15

@Ginevere You've got this 💪 Whatever your birth looks like you can handle it. Let us know how you get on! And if you do join the positive birth company's FB page I'd be interested to hear what you think about some of the stories on there! The best part is that they're not all 'perfect' or evangelical at all. C-sections, epidurals, assistance etc are written about, as well as home births / water births / completely un medicated births. But they are all positive accounts which is the bit I've really appreciated.

anniebu · 13/06/2021 15:24

I was not afraid of birth, because time passes, and birth only lasts so many hours. When "latent labor" starts, it will be more exciting than painful, when you are beginning to dilate and "true" labor starts, remember it will be over in a day or less, usually just hours. When you are told to push, only a couple of hours separate you from holding your baby.

If you are afraid, let yourself be afraid. Embrace any feeling you have, let it be felt, and let it pass. You will do alright. Take care.

CookPassBabtridge · 13/06/2021 15:25

I had two sections because I felt like you, best things I did.

Ineedacoffee21 · 13/06/2021 16:19

Definitely recommend the positive birth company pack if you’re feeling anxious!
It’s brilliant at explaining everything.
Try to avoid those negative birth stories they will only add to your fears, I was the exact same. After doing the hypnobirthing course I also had a very positive first birth. I was in active labour for around 6-7 hours and the time goes so quickly! I had a water birth and it was the most relaxed and focused I had felt throughout my whole pregnancy!
If you try and have a rough idea of a birth plan (sometimes difficult to stick to in every situation) but plan for each situation that might occur:
If you have a water birth what things would you like to happen?
If they suggest a c section what positive things would help you relax in that situation?
Sometimes little things like home comforts can still help you be in control of your labour!
Good luck OP xx

PerspicaciousGreen · 13/06/2021 16:50

The one thing I wish I'd realised properly before my first birth is that labour isn't linear. Four hours in I was checked and told I was 1cm dilated. Fucking hell, I thought, if 4h = 1cm = this much pain, then I've got 36h to go before so even push and I'll be in ten times as much pain by the end. I was devastated. NOPETY NOPE NOPE NOPE.

I had another 7h including 90m or so of pushing and my 10cm pain was sooooooo much less than ten times as bad! I'd juuuuuust got to "Seriously, if I've got another [massive overestimate] hours to go then I am seriously going to want an epidural in a few hours" when my waters broke everywhere and they checked me and told me it was time to push!

Parker231 · 13/06/2021 16:56

I had an epidural- planned it as I wanted to enjoy the births and didn’t see the point of any pain. Everything worked well, I wasn’t in pain and had healthy babies

Notsogreenthumb · 13/06/2021 21:51

Wow so much uncertainty.. and that's just it. Uncertain. Just because Mary and Sue had bad birthing experiences doesn't mean you will. There's a lot of fear mongering to first time mums. If it really and truly was that bad nobody would have a second.

I read a lot about hypnobirthing (visualising the baby's journey through the body and breathing through the movements - didn't believe a lot of the other stuff attached to it, each to their own). I had a home-birth, no epidural, hardly any period pains before pregnancy, and my baby took his sweet time coming out - 22 hours.. but it was fine. I didn't feel the need to rush to the hospital, I didn't feel like I'd die without an epidural there and then, and neither did I think I couldn't handle it. Gas and air was enough. The thing that scared me the most was the head coming through and the 'ring of fire'.. funny as that's the one part I don't remember feeling much at all. I was surprised as any when he suddenly passed through Grin

So try to take it easy, take deep breaths, and tell yourself thousands of women do this daily. Daily. And many go on to have successive children. If it was something you couldn't handle, your body wouldn't have the ability to go through it.. but clearly it does Smile. Try to think positively toward the moment you'll be giving life to another and experiencing the empowerment through it all. Best wishes Thanks

Swipe left for the next trending thread