I’ve got my appointment booked for tonight, I’m 13 weeks. I’m going to call the vaccination centre today and check they’re stocked with pzifer/moderna (they should be as both DH and I got the text at the same time and are under 40).
I work from home and speaking with my manager, that will continue to the end of my pregnancy. DH also works from home but is expected in the office a couple of days a week going forward. This is our first baby, so no others in school or nursery. Most of our activities are outside, so low risk and we live in an area that has had low cases throughout. My area is 2 cases per 100,000 with a population of about 90,000 so that will be just 2 cases. However, I am obese.
I watched the pregnant then screwed video which helped a lot. I need to start doing some site visits for work, which will all be outside but meeting with a lot of people. I’m also just not prepared to lock myself away all summer and winter. We live nowhere near family and have friends all over the country, so locally we only have a few friends. DH saw his local friend a handful of times last year, I last a local friend in August. That’s it. We haven’t seen family since February 2020, not seen any of our other friends. Zoom isn’t the same. I saw my mum outside for the first time since February 2020 and I’m just done not seeing anyone. At the beginning of my pregnancy, I thought I could just lock myself away but I think that’s going to do more damage to my mental health longer term. I’m due early December when we’re going to see winter spikes again.
I’ve done a lot of research. I asked DH to do some research too because his degree was in biomedical sciences (doesn’t work in that field) but I knew he would be able to understand some of the technical side a bit easier and quicker than I would.
A couple of weeks ago, it felt like I was standing in a room with two doors, vaccinate or not. One route led to safety and the other led to hungry lions. But nobody labelled the doors so how was I to know which way to go? I’ve had to change my thinking a bit. It isn’t one door is safety and the other is lions. Both pose unknown risks so you have to take a door and if something bad happens either way, you have to remind yourself that the other route wasn’t necessarily safe either. Obviously it’s easier said than done. Another poster on here (not a vaccine thread) said something about regrets, although they put it far more eloquently than I will. They said it’s the nature of humans to question what if when you’re given two impossible choices. You don’t know which way it’s going to take you, so be kind to yourself and remember that you took the least bad option that was available to you at the time. For me, the vaccine is the least bad option available to me at the moment.