Okay so I need some thoughts. or something.. anything.
Okay so I found out I was pregnant October this year.. I was booked in for my midwife appointment but because I was so so sick I physically couldn’t get myself out of my bed to even get to my appointment. So it got moved to a later date which I wasn’t happy about as I had a miscarriage earlier this summer which was one of the worst things I’ve ever been through. I just wanted to get seen to ASAP, Any how, it gets to the weekend & I started spotting on the Saturday then it got heavier, then I passed like a weird pink / sack kinda thing.. god knows what it was it looked so bizarre. Then a few hours later I passed a pretty big clot looking thing! My heart just sank. I rang 111 straight away and they booked me in Monday morning so all Sunday I was just left thinking what the hell is going on! But I never felt like I did the time I had my miscarriage a few months Prior! Even the morning I went to the scan back in July I knew something was up I knew I was gonna get told bad news I felt it in my gut, but this time nothing.
So this is when it gets weird. So I go to my appointment Monday morning.. a 2 hour wait may I add 🤦🏻♀️ I go for my scan and she looks puzzled and asked me if I could be earlier then I thought so I said of course ( I have random periods ) so she said I can definitely see pregnancy there ( I did bring up the clot & the things I’d passed but that didn’t seem to bother her ) but I can’t see anything as of yet, then asked to do an internal but I refused as I was still bleeding a little & was just super uncomfortable as I got my cervix ruptured by a doctor once when I had my son a couple years ago. So they took my bloods and wanted to do a repeat in 2 days time! In them 2 days the bleeding calmed down! ( when I had my miscarriage I bled A LOT for almost 2 week it was that bad I was genuinely wearing women nappies! ( comfy as hell may I add ) so again left feeling lost & just numb from the absolute rollercoaster ride I’m being taken on. I go for my repeat bloods, she calls later that afternoon & says she’s very sorry but my bloods have dropped ( I can’t remember the number now as I instantly felt crushed ) she said to take a test in 2 weeks time. So I did and I just got a faint positive. I’ve had 3 faint positives now but I didn’t think it was worth telling them as it was dropping surely that means my pregnancy isn’t progressing right ?
Right NOW this is when it gets spooky. So (also I get people don’t like messing with this type of stuff, but I did. I hold my hands up I did it. ) So my sister, mum & I did a Ouija board a couple weeks ago, I’ve never ever done one before so I was super intrigued. So we did it all properly did a meditation before hand got all my crystals out got all Zen. Anyway my uncle who passed when I was really young came through & kept saying 17th of May over and over then he went on to say the doctors have got it wrong, he told me im 8 weeks pregnant then he went. Then my nan came through ( I was actually surprised to get spirits that know me come through ) so my Nan kept saying pregnant, little girl born 17th of May 2021. Now I swear I worked out dates and it would be about right. She kept saying the doctors got it wrong! My mind at this point was blown. We left it be I threw it to the back of my mind and went about my day to day life.! I have a 2 year old so my days full of constantly trying to entertain him so I’m constantly busy, now the last few days I’ve been feeling like a flicking sensation from the inside around my left side, I feel a lot of movement that I know isn’t a fart ( TMI I know! ) now I’m starting to question everything! Is there a way I could be pregnant and they got it wrong...
SO.. we did another Ouija board and a spirit unknown to us came through and kept getting angry saying take a test take a test pregnant. Then kept repeating infant. NOW this morning I went on my insta and I just put a # and it randomly said “#10weekspregnant” WHY WOULD IT SAY THAT!!!!! Why!! I’m a big believer in signs and things but from the time my uncle said 8 weeks it’s been 2 weeks since. So id be around that time, Sooo at this point I wanna Burry my head in a pile of sand and scream. I don’t know what to do I feel strange. Does anyone have any advice or just anything 🤦🏻♀️🤯