Am I just waiting to lose it now?

[BuffaloCauliflower]

7 weeks tomorrow, first baby, had a loss last November at 5+3 so made it further than last time so far but admittedly anxious.

I’ve started getting that pinkish smear when I wipe and that ‘heaviness’ in the womb area, and ‘not cramps but you know cramps are coming’ feeling that comes just before your period today - you’ll know what I mean, but trying to explain to DH who’s never had a period is harder. Feeling getting more consistent over the evening. No blood as such, but definitely that pink smear, I’ve seen it before.

Do I just assume my body is gearing up to lose it now? I know some spotting in pregnancy can be normal and fine but this feels so much like the start of a period, like it was last time, just feels sensible to start gearing up for the blood proper...

Urgh... and quite a few people know I’m pregnant this time (Coronavirus reasons) and I don’t want to talk to anyone. Except DH, who’s trying to be positive.

Any wisdom, wise ladies?

Hi there OP, I'm sorry you're feeling this way, I had a MMC last year found at 12 weeks scan, I'm currently 19 weeks and had some light spotting as you describe along with cramps up until appx 9-10 weeks and was worried sick the whole time. I don't want to give false hope but you need to know that this can be perfectly normal too. Hang in there and maybe if you can afford it book a private scan to settle your anxiety in a week or so to keep you going until your 12 weeks x good luck x

Thank you. I’m so worried about a MMC too. I know some is normal but it’s not exactly comforting! I’m blood type A- too so bleeding could be more problematic, but there’s no actual blood - yet anyway. I’d seek help if there was.
I’ve thought about an early scan, but even seeing a heartbeat at 8-9 weeks you can still lose it, so feels like a false security. I know what will be will be, but I’ve been so much more positive this time, would just be a kick in the teeth to lose it now. Already struggling mentally with the lockdown.

Hi lovely I am going through exactly the same as we speak so worrying I think I’m about to lose mine too 5+2 lost one last year too. Hope you are ok xx

Thanks lovely. Sorry to hear that, I hope we’re both wrong! Crampy feeling is definitely increasing though. Hopefully going to sleep soon so I don’t have to think about it.

Thinking of you today hope you got some sleep xxx

How are you feeling today OP?

I had some pink CM in the first 12 weeks, 2 or 3 times and really panicked as had 2 previous MMC. Turning 25 weeks tomorrow so, so far all is going well. Just a positive story for you x

I know exactly what you mean about that heavy feeling. When I was around 8 weeks pregnant I was saying that to my husband for days that I felt like my period was away to start. Two days later I started bleeding, light at first but it got heavier. I ended up in hospital a couple of times, each time they scanned me and baby was absolutely fine, extra wriggly, waving and a really strain heartbeat. I continued bleeding, every day. The worst day I actually passed a clot the size of my hand but after another scan, baby again was fine. The also checked my cervix which was closed which was also a good sign. I had my 12 week scan (still bleeding at this point) and they found some bruising inside my uterus (a subchronic haematoma). It measured 3.5x3.5cm and around 1cm thick. It wasn't near the baby or the placenta so didn't appear too worrying for them. I'm now 15 weeks and bleeding has pretty much stopped over the past week, apart from a few instances of pink when wiping. I know hearing positive stories helped me during my most worrying times. I prepared myself for the worst, so I was really quite pleasantly surprised to find out my baby was okay. I have another scan in 6 days and I can't wait to get another wave from my baby! Get in touch with your midwife or your Early Pregnancy Unit and explain what's happened. They'll likely tell you to monitor it for a couple of days and go in if it gets worse. Hope everything goes well for you, please keep us posted ❤️

Thanks @Ajahd it is really helpful to hear those sort of story’s

Feeling a bit dead this morning, slept really badly and my brain kept whirring, but doesn’t seem to be anything untoward going on today.

I think it’s made harder by knowing I can’t just go to the EPU at the moment because of CV, and DH couldn’t come in with me if I did. Makes it all a bit more nerve wracking.
Don’t have a midwife yet, I’ve gone in the system and waiting for scan letter, need to try and make community midwife appointment now, will try today or tomorrow.

Getting a few twinges the longer I’m awake, but it’s the same old thing of ‘could be totally fine and normal, could be something to worry about’ that seems to be everything in pregnancy!

I know what you mean. I've scrutinised every single pain, cramp, feeling. What I will say is that while I was bleeding I had quite a bit of cramping. A lot of people told me not to worry about bleeding if I didn't feel any pain, but there were some nights where the cramps kept me awake. I don't normally take painkillers but I found myself taking paracetamol just to get to sleep. When I think back, it makes sense, I essentially had internal bruising, of course there's going to be a feeling of discomfort. As my bleeding has lessened the cramps have gone and now I just feel bloated all the time! This is my first pregnancy, so I don't have much experience of what is normal, but this is just what I've experienced. Are EPUs not seeing anyone at all? Bearing in mind it's been over a month since my last visit so I can understand that things have changed. I hope youamage to see someone, I know how horribly this can play on your mind. Hope it all works out for you

Getting some sharp pains in a line shape going downwards every so often now. Might just be things moving around, who knows. No actual ‘bleeding’ at the moment thankfully. I’ve never been this pregnant before so also hard to know what’s normal. I’m going to try and ride it out unless pain gets bad or there’s actual bleeding. It’s just such an uncertain time.

EPUs are seeing women but seems to be on a more restricted basis, less likely to just check it seems. I admit I haven’t actually tried.

How are you doing now @Jaylou7?

I just wanted to join the convo as I'm going through similar. I had a MC in December and another one last April so I'm VERY anxious about this current pregnancy! I had really bad period-like cramps and heaviness down there from the day my period was due and I totally expected to lose baby. I managed to persuade my GP to send me for an early scan when I should've been 6 weeks exactly. The scan showed yolk sac but no embryo and I was devastated. I went back 10 days later for the follow up scan and there was a little heart beat in there! She confirmed I was 7+4 and couldn't explain why the last scan showed nothing at all. Since then I've had no cramps whatsoever. Woo.

Last night I got a tiny bit of light pink when I wiped... I'm back to feeling like I'm going to lost it any day now. I'm 9 weeks tomorrow.

I had, and still sometimes have, a heavy feeling and cramping. Have had on and off since about 6 weeks, now 14 weeks. Scan was fine. I think it's just some of those things- doesn't necessarily mean there's a problem. Shooting pains are normal, particularly if they happen when you move fast, sneeze or cough.

Hi lovely I am better today no bleeding bit of a back ache but no real symptoms as yet. You still doing good ? Thank you for asking xxx

Hi, just wanted to say, hang in there and I hope things are ok. I’ve had 3 miscarriages and 2 children (currently pregnant with no.3) and everyone is different but I had some pink wiping and weird dark red stringy stuff at pretty much the gestation you’re describing (if you search my posts you’ll see me asking about it on my due date thread) - and all turned out to be completely fine, and a few others on the thread had had the same. My first miscarriage started with pink wiping but quickly progressed to proper blood. Like I say, everyone is different and every pregnancy has been different for me and I don’t want to give you false hope, but my own experience of on-off pinky stuff at the start turned out to be entirely benign.

Thanks all, it is helpful to hear people’s stories. There’s so much variation but it’s just not something we seem to talk about until it’s happening.

Glad to hear you’re a bit better @Jaylou7

I’m ok. No more pink when wiping (you start to wonder if you imagined it!) and the pains have stopped. Going to just keep hoping for the best, one day at a time I guess

I’m only just 4 weeks something (I think) but this is my second pregnancy.

My first, I had that exact feeling (the heaviness and cramps are coming) as well as actual cramps regularly until 12ish weeks and sporadically until about 17 weeks. I paid for a private scan at 7+4 because I was so convinced the cramps were too strong to be okay. My DD is fast asleep in the room next to me. Cramps are terrifying, but also really common and often harmless. Please don’t think the worse. Hoping it’s all okay for you, OP.

Same today so bizarre! Just waiting for my nausea to start as then I will feel more reassured xx

I heard pink could be from cervix as it's irritated by raising levels of progesterone. Mild cramping is fine too. Really hope it's nothing! Good luck!

@Jaylou7 I’m 7 weeks and haven’t really had any nausea. I’ve had a kind of woozy drunk feeling and being spaced out, and really tired on and off, but no sickness. My DM and my aunt both said they weren’t sick with any of their pregnancies. So don’t rely on it as a barometer of anything because else everyone’s different

Thanks @Viletta

I’ve been so sick in all my pregnancies before apart from my mc last year. Think that’s why I’m personally worried. As much as I hate the sickness I kind of like it as it makes me feel more pregnant if that makes sense. Xx

That makes sense then. But they still are all different. My BF has had 4 pregnancies, all healthy no issues, but sick as a dog with 1.2 and 4, and totally fine with 3.