This morning I found out I am pregnant and it's knocked me sideways a bit.
I'm 37, I have 2 kids who are 9 and 5 and things were just getting easy. They're settled at school, they sleep well, things are ticking over finances wise and we have just enough space.
I have embarked on quite an intense e in order to potentially change my career and I felt I had reached a bit of a turning point where as maybe I could take on some more hours, currently work part time and have done for 8 years.
My periods are all over the place since being absolutely destroyed by the injection 2 years ago and sex is a rarity these days. I woke up at 5am this morning and felt so sick that something made me take a test. I just feel so differently about it than the other 2 times and I really don't know why.
I feel overwhelmed and a bit sad, like I won't cope, like we won't afford it, like I won't be able to carry on with the intensity of my qualification, like it's selfish, like it's going to tip a balance and just really uneasy.
Did anyone else feel like this and go on to actually totally cope and be happy with a third?
I'm hoping I am just feeling hormonal and surprised and haven't actually turned into some kind of stone monster