They take SO long to come around don’t they? Until then my partner tells me to try have faith in the baby and send them calm positive signals that I know they’re working hard and doing well 😂
I ended up having scans at 5, 7, 11, 11 and 12 weeks. One of the 11 week scans was private as I’d had some bleeding and the NHS wouldn’t scan me as they said the bleeding wasn’t concerning but I was out of my mind with fear and anxiety and decided the £90 was worth it. It was the right decision for me as it showed the baby was perfect and jumping around and i wouldn’t have believed that baby was okay without having that visual evidence. The other 11 week was three days later when the EPU finally reopened, and only lasted ten seconds, she just found the heartbeat then that was it. I wouldn’t have found such a quick scan reassuring enough tbh after the bleeding so I was glad I could afford the private option as the NHS were pretty shit from a patient’s perspective about the bleeding and gave so little support/no answers/didn’t take any of it seriously. I know bleeding isn’t unusual and they can’t give resources to everyone btw so not having a go.
I’ve got five weeks to go until the twenty week scan and it’s dragging so much, feel like I’m a dead zone where I don’t feel quite as rubbish physically so I sometimes feel I could forget I’m pregnant, movement hasn’t started so there’s no feedback from baby that they’re okay, and my belly/uterus seems to have stalled! Hoping that within the next five weeks I feel quickening or movement.
Would you believe I’m generally the least anxious/worried person on the planet? Pregnancy has turned that upside down. I’ve never been so scared. It’s so so so hard, like you’ve entered a lottery for the most precious thing in the world and you have no idea whether it’s gonna end in the most amazing thing or in a horrific loss. It’s one of the more challenging experiences.
If you can scrape up the money for a scan personally I’d do it to save yourself weeks of stress. Even though I’m not brilliantly calm now I definitely am a world away from the fear I felt early on. Good luck!