I'm pregnant. Realised yesterday that I was a week or two late and my boobs hurt like crazy. Confirmed it today with a test. I know when it happened. I usually keep good track of my dates and make sure we don't DTD on any fertile days. I've not been well lately and clearly I must've messed up.
I have two beautiful DCs (5 & 4). I'm in a stable relationship with DH. However I have significant mental health difficulties. I'm just about to go back to work after being signed off Since June. My disability benefits have been stopped thanks to the stupid PIP system which means that we are totally skint.
I think having another baby right now may actually kill me. I have severe antenatal & postnatal depression with both DCs and I was hospitalised when my youngest was around 16months old. It's not fair on my current DCs if this makes me that ill again as they are old enough for it to really affect them. Being pregnant would also mean a change in my medication, last time my meds changed I had to be hospitalised to be closely monitored. Again, not fair on my current DCs.
Logically I can't continue with this pregnancy, but the thought of a termination terrifies me. I have no idea how to go about it, who to contact, what to do. I'm scared.
I haven't told DH yet. He's also been struggling with his MH and I don't want to make him worse. I will tell him, but I think I should get the termination booked first and then tell him.
I would really appreciate some advice and reassurance right now from anyone in the same position.