I thought an mmc would be like a massive period but I and the specialist consultant made it sound like all people have contractions and feel the need to push so you have actual labour pains. I think everyone should make sure they have strong painkillers at home. Just in case! You can have paracetamol and codeine. So cocodamol is fine. Check spellings please. It is humiliating being in A&E reception begging for pain killers. I can tell you I've never begged like that in my life.
I'm still bleeding and passing massive clots.
Honestly I can't think about the missing baby yet though as I'm just so relieved the pain is over.
Thank you all so much for holding my hand. It really did help me loads. I'm gonna take a few months to recover/distract myself with other things and then reasses if I want to have another go. Right now I really don't. Still happy to be around other people's babies though.
My mum came round she had a little cry. DH then had a massive cry.