We were out this eve for DH's birthday doing some fun, silly, 'we won't get a chance to do this when the baby's here stuff'. Microbrewery where he (not I) sampled a few, favourite burger place and then an ice cream parlour. I was tucking into my sundae when in the midst of the fun evening I realised I wasn't supposed to be eating this. I didn't check whether it was pasteurised and I'm certain the bit on the top of the sundae came out of a soft ice cream machine, which I know you're not supposed to have.
DH has tried to reassure me but now we are home I feel sick and am frankly hysterical with worry. I can't believe I was so irresponsible. The worst part is I carried on eating a little bit after I realised because I was sort of trying to convince myself I hadn't done anything wrong. I stopped pretty quickly though.
Salmonella doesn't worry me too much but listeria terrifies me because of the horrific effects for baby and how susceptible you are to it during pregnancy. I know it's the main risk with ice cream.
And I've just looked it up and listeria can take 3-70 days to develop, so I feel like I'm facing 70 days of unbearable anxiety.
I'm only 19+4 at the moment.
I just feel so awful about it. Like l've let my baby down.