Anyone between 4 - 8 weeks, and feeling very nervous?

[LHReturns]

Hello! This is my first tentative step from the Infertility Board.

I am 5 weeks and 1 day, not feeling any substantial side effects yet - and until I see a strong heartbeat I feel like a fraud over here on Pregnancy. But equally I don't belong for the moment over on Infertility.

My battle has not been that long - been trying for about 18 months, and this was my first fresh round of IVF. We transferred two 5-day blasts on 13 September (my cycle is 24 days so somehow this makes me 5+1 today).

My IVF was at the Lister, and I have one naturally conceived son who just turned 2. I am nearly 41 years old.

If there is anyone else out there who has their BFP, but getting here has been a great struggle for any reason, and you are counting the minutes until a viability scan (and then will be very nervous about genetic screening), maybe you would like to chat here for a while?

Would love some buddies through this tough period!

Yes it's a good surprise but as I had a difficult time with DS for various reasons and am just feeling like myself again it's a bit daunting too!

I had a suspicion she was going to tell me I was when she asked when my last period was and I had no idea! She said she thought she could see a sac but to go home and do a test and contact my gp for a referral to the early pregnancy clinic. My gp saw no need for that after seeing her report so not sure what to think... its going to be a long few weeks!

LH good luck with your scan tomorrow! And you're lovely, thank you for the HCG reassurance, it makes me feel a lot better. I can't believe you're going to the ballet in that state, I hope you manage to escape outside for some deep breathing at some point. I need to know what you've eaten since 4pm, your food list is inspiring me. I had my first proper round of nausea this afternoon (yay?), I sat at my desk deep breathing and muttering 'don't hurl, don't hurl, don't hurl' as a mantra. Ginger tea did help a bit, but two mocha decaf cappuccinos helped more. I might send DH out for some monster munch - any recommended flavours...?

Tea are you feeling any better now?

Nanny blimey, three kids?! Although at least you're physically active - I am finding the nausea is much better when I'm physically moving. POAS away. I only stopped when I realised it was making my UTI worse.

Klaxon - my UTI has officially gone! I'm still going to be careful with what I drink and eat, but I was so relieved when the doc phoned to say I didn't need any more antibiotics after two rounds of them.

Nimisha me too on the cold, you've got my sympathy. Apparently we're immunosuppressed so we pick up any bug going. Have you had the flu jab? I have, for all the good it did. I've got important visitors at work this week, so I'm struggling in and coughing over them .

Welcome Tike, what a lovely way to find out!

Wave to Oranges.

Sorry for my little freak out yesterday, like all of us I just can't believe I've made it this far and I keep worrying it will all go wrong.

Robber thank you - but my scan is on Thursday! Another day to go.

I have just escaped the ballet which was one of Carlos Acosta's retirement performances and really spectacular. I managed NOT to throw up although that joy has now begun.

I will write more tomorrow but food update: 6 glasses of the elderflower soft cocktail, and 5 mini-bowls of the mushroom risotto. Yes at the interval 'standing supper'. My head is pounding and my nose can smell anything synthetic or flowery a mile away.

I am walking around with my trousers half undone and a mouth far too filled with saliva. Now planning what I will eat when I get home. Thinking more monster munch. And the old curled leftover BLT by the bed of our nanny hasn't thrown it away.

Will write more tomorrow as getting car sick now, but in the meantime hope you are all feeling good tonight.

so sorry, I knew the scan was Thursday, I just thought it was Wednesday today. Time is moving weirdly at the moment, both too fast and too slow! DH has to remind me each morning what day it is so I go to the right meeting!

Woohoo on the UTI cure Robber!

I'd been feeling a bit calmer (or else distracted by crazy work shenanigans) but am suddenly really worried about scan on Friday.

Hope you're all doing OK.

So happy for you on UTI Robber - that is something you really didn't need!

Orange I feel the same. I am feeling dreadful today, very sick, and starting to lose a bit of faith. Doesn't help when I walk into the kitchen and four small doggies compete over who can lick my face most.

Have found one more drink that appeals - Capri-Sun. No joke. I am 8.

By the weekend hopefully we will all be feeling much more in control. xx

OK, so now I can say good luck tomorrow LH . I hope you're not too nervous. If you like Capri Sun, try the new tropical Trop 50, it tastes like the 80s. I've discovered coconut water which is a nice change from water.

Oranges sorry you're feeling nervous. I'm feeling oddly calm today. I suspect it will last til 2am Fri morning. I've never had such bad insomnia as I've had in the last two weeks.

Indeed Robber, the night before has arrived. I haven't thought much about the scan today, mainly because I have been distracted by terrible sickness all day today.

Here is today's diet:

• 2 packs monster munch (gone off these now, pickled onion has passed)
• Half a bagel
• Gourmet hamburger and a LOT of ketchup (no bun)
• 4 ginger snaps - another mistake, def all in bin now
• 2 frappuccinos
• 2 pints of orange squash
• waitrose Thai curry with noodles
• an entire watermelon
• two chocolate marshmellow biscuits (the kids ones that come in wrappers)

It is 7.28pm - I'm not finished yet. I had a monster acupuncture session this evening so fingers crossed this will improve things tomorrow.

Orange, it is VERY close to your scan when you will hopefully get some concrete reassurance. How are you feeling today?

My scan is at 1.30pm tomorrow. Would be great to see a heartbeat, but if not hopefully we can at least see if there is a sac / yolk sac / fetal pole looking on track...as I had two blastocysts transferred I do want to know how many we are talking about.

Hello to everyone else: Nimisha, Granny, Tea, Tike - hope you are all doing well. Any others scans coming up soon?

Robber my sleep is totally trashed too. Multiple night wake ups, then takes ages to get back to sleep. Night sweats seem to be improving a little....SO SEXY.

I'm struggling sleep wise too!! Awake several times a night for atleast an hour at a time! No fun when you have a 12hr shift the next day... I'm wondering how I'm gonna carry on coping at work I'm knackered already!
I'm looking forward to finally getting to the doctors Friday (Getting an app has been a nightmare) finally get it all confirmed and push for an early scan!
I definatly did POAS this morning and so glad I did, it came up positive within about 20seconds.
Good luck for tomorrow LH can't wait to hear about it!! Fingers crossed for the best news for you. Loving the food updates again! I can't really stomach a big meal so find myself snacking throughout the day!
Hope everyone has had a good day!!

LH you realise you'll have to continue these food updates for the next 34 weeks? They are better than the Archers . You're covering all the major baby-growing food groups - calcium in the frappuccinos, vit C in the OJ, protein in the burger, fibre and vits in the watermelon - and your diet looks a lot more fun than the one I've just read about in 'What to expect when you're expecting', which my friend lent to me.

Ah, so glad it isn't just me with trashed sleep, though not glad to hear you're also suffering. I don't have night sweats, I have night shivers (although our house is a cold old house, so not really unusual).

Nanny I've also tried the little-and-often eating approach today, and felt much better for it.

I am also really struggling with sleeping - exhausted at 9pm, totally awake from 2-4am! My book group (failed to) read Dr Zhivago a while back though, so I've started reading that on my Kindle and that definitely makes me sleepy again!

Calm about the scan again - guess the worry is just coming and going. It's at 3.30 on Friday.

My food diary is much more boring but after a full dinner I was so hungry I ate a bowl of cereal, then walked to the shop for cake to eat while watching bake off!

Morning sickness still (mostly) staying away.

Hi robber, I am feeling better thank you. How far along are you now?

Lh good luck for tomorrow!! I asked to film a clip of mine to refer to and you can hear just how terrified I was in my voice and breathing! I'm sure you will be fine and I look forward to finding out if you have one or two on board! Also thanks for saying about the HG and prednisolone. It's make me feel lot better!

I've noticed people around me are getting a lot more colds so I'm sure I'm going to pick something up during my dreaded commute. Are you all having/had the flu vaccine? Ive had bad reactions to vaccines in the past so it makes me nervous.

I hope everyone else is well and managing to enjoy it amongst all the anxiety/ nausea!

LH How did it go? I hope well. Rooting for you.

Any other scans today?

Thank you so much Orange. Just back...

A good scan at 6 + 0. While everything is minuscule, there was a lovely heartbeat, and measurements all look normal. I have my formal viability scan at the Lister on Tuesday and by then i will be nearly 7 weeks - so might hope for a slightly more informative scan. (Granny, this is why waiting until 8 weeks would be a clever move - there just isn't much to see at this stage).

I am sick as a dog, and need to get focused on my hydration. Have been prescribed some meds, so hopefully will get some relief in the next 1 - 2 days. This time I feel like I could cope with the nausea if I could control the vomiting. As long as I am vomiting I could end up in hospital (as I have before), and that really is the pits.

Food report is not exciting today....very little and nothing has stayed down yet.

Sorry to sound grumpy - I feel thrilled and blessed with my scan. It is the facing of such a depressing 6 weeks (minimum) of physical hell and worry that is daunting me a little today.

Keeping in touch with all of you, and hearing your news really helps.

LH that's great news!! Not about the sickness though which sounds awful. Could they give you anything that worked for it last time?

The worrying is never ending isn't it. I think the first trimester just seems to make time stand still. I cheated and tested really early so I've known since 3+3 which feels like an eternity.

Hi ladies
Had my first scan today and discovered I'm 8 wks in. Absolutely terrified. But reassured that there's a heartbeat (makes me feel abnormal - but like a time lord).
Unplanned and unprepared for this in my early 40s, and fighting back excitement and engagement until we're a bit further down the road.
When do most people tell family?
Can't bear the thought of the MIL fussing but telling will make it more of a reality... 2nd scan is at 13 wks, but don't know if I can hold on for another month!

Yay LH!
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Teakind* Time has definitely slowed down. We're all feeling it so it must be true!

Hello Teaspoon and others!

Yay LH!
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Teakind* Time has definitely slowed down. We're all feeling it so it must be true!

Hello Teaspoon and others!

(Sorry for phone garbled messages)

Thank you so much for kinds words. Have managed to keep down a potato with butter and two cans of red coke with all bubbles stirred out. Slight improvement this evening.

Hello Teaspoon - congratulations! I am nearly 41 so know the feeling of 'am I up to this?'. Is this your first or you already have children?

I have told my mum, sister and MIL - because I would tell them if I had a miscarriage anyway. I haven't told any friends yet but I probably will later next week. Truthfully after 8 weeks (like you!) I tell those closest to me. But also at our age we need to bear in mind the genetic screening process - I find this subject VERY difficult. I think I worry more than is rational about chromosomal problems.

Picking up a prescription tomorrow for some prednisolone to start my battle with Hyperesemis. Would LOVE to avoid hospital this time.

Robber and Orange - am I right that you both have scans tomorrow? Everything is crossed for you both and will be waiting to hear!

Hey all

LH congratulations that's fantastic! I'm glad there's only one heartbeat. Really sorry you're feeling rubbish, but at least you and your GP are aware and are being proactive. Are you managing to work?

Teakind I'm glad you're feeling better. I'm 6+4 today. I had the flu jab twelve days ago, and then started a horrible cold six days ago which I just can't shift. Dealing with a cold without being able to reach for Night Nurse is rubbish!

Oranges good luck for tomorrow! I'm in the morning, but I won't be able to post til tomorrow night.

Teaspoon welcome (so much tea on this thread!) That must have been lovely hearing a heartbeat. We've told a few friends (people who knew we were having fertility treatment) but won't tell family til December, presuming we get there, as by then I'll be more than twelve weeks.

Nausea is back today, I managed it much better yesterday when I was off with this cold. I think I tend to run around more at work and not eat often enough.

Great to hear from you Robber!

My role means I can get away with working from home some of the time (not ALL the time). Haven't been to office this week, so this isn't sustainable no. I lie in a heap in my bed, laptop perched, surrounded by wrappers and plates and half drunk drinks and tissues and Cyclogest wrappers and used Clexane needles. A proper Tracey Emin scene.

Aren't terrible cold symptoms a normal early pregnancy side effect? I am pretty sure that is the case. It isn't a coincidence that many of you are feeling fluey, I don't think.

Thinking about your scans tomorrow, Robber and Orange. Robber take it easy - your nausea will be more manageable when you look after yourself. I get the feeling you run about a lot!

LH Thanks! I'm also worried about the abnormality scan. And it's my first. Unplanned. Terrifying!!

Robber Good luck with the scan! And hope the nausea settles soon. I'm getting it in waves but from the looks of it I am nowhere near as bad as a lot of folk on here!!

And yes, the heartbeat was a relief... Though the tears before during and after the scan were a surprise. Bloody hormones!!

LH brilliant! I love the way you write about being pregnant. Tate Modern should definitely do a 'Pregnancy: the truth' exhibition, complete with your unmade bed. And you're right, I'm starting to have to slow down - I got home tonight and crawled onto the sofa to watch TV, which is unheard of for me.

Teaspoon I also cry at scans, good news, bad news, doesn't matter. It is starting to become a Pavlovian reflex whenever I look at a dark screen with bits of white on it.

I'm also developing aversions to previously beloved food. Today I had to throw away some feta on my lunch, and I now can't stomach Greek yoghurt, which is really inconvenient because Mr Sainsbury delivered five large pots the other day. DH is becoming my waste disposal unit.