Hi all,
My wife and I found out yesterday that through IVF we are having twins.
We already have a wonderful 3 and a half year old miracle and she is everything to me and us.
To be honest I'm going through mixed feelings of shock, upset, but mostly fear of not being able to look after my family well enough financially and not giving our wonderful daughter all the love she deserves. I'm terrified. House, car, buying 2 of everything.
My wife wanted to put 2 embryos because after failed treatments she couldn't face doing it again. I don't think she really considered twins as a realistic option.
I agreed this is how we should go. I now resent her slightly for doing it but would NEVER say this to her or blame her.
It is what it is and we have to accept it.
I regret using 2 embryos. It sounds awful. I feel guilty writing it.
This isn't how I should feel when we're lucky enough to finally get pregnant but I'm upset and it may sound awful, but part of me wishes we weren't. I didn't want twins. At all.
The thought of duel crying feeding etc etc and all that goes with it is terrifying me.
I can't be happy and both of us have different views.
I'm in a bit of a daze and scared that i won't be able to handle the responsibility or enjoy it. I feel guilty as I shouldn't feel like this.
Anyone feel the same regards to twins being a surprise? Especially when you already have a child?
I haven't told anyone yet as only at 7 weeks so very alone right now.