Hi all,
Thank you so much for your advice and support. It has been weeks ago but today I thought I would like to let you all know how everything went.
Well! I was so much in pain I forgot to check baby's movement, when my husband ask if baby is moving I couldn't tell, got bit panic and rushed to the hospital. I could barely sit in the car and barely walk inside the hospital. Had to wait for ages, I was like a lion in the cage walking left to right, right to left in pain. Finally, they monitored the baby and my contraction levels. Baby was doing fine but my contractions high and low. At this time, I was already feeling different contractions like the uterus puffing out with very extreme urge to push. I was literally grunting hhhhmmmm in each contraction. The midwife also checked the cervix which was only about 3cm dilated. While they checked the cervix, I was so stressed that somehow my water broke. I didn't even know it was that, my trouser was soaked then the midwife said your water has broken. You should stay in hospital. But I never wanted hospital birth so after confirming that the baby is still moving, water has broken and only 3cm dilated, we returned home.
After 6,7 hours the urge to push became even much stronger, like every 30 seconds. I couldn't control although midwife told me not to push but breathe. I put my finger inside the vagina and checked if something is happing there. I felt some kind of balloon like slowly coming lower and lower as the time goes by. I got more anxious and called my other midwives who were supporting my home birth. They came after half an hour and confirmed that the cervix is fully dilated and I can push when the contractions comes. So the epic birth started from there.
My husband started arranging the birthing pool and 2 midwives were there to assist me. As the contractions keep coming I went into the pool, took about 1.5 hour or so but not much progress so the midwives suggested we should go to toilet and that should speed things up. We did so, snuggled with my husband and think about all the romantic stuff we did and the contractions became more stronger and frequent. Her head starts to come out, MW tried to took me to my bedroom but the head came out at the entrance of the bedroom. Waited for another contractions sitting on 4 but not much progress for because the baby's shoulder got stuck. Then the panic started. MW started to panic, my husband looked so panic and sweaty. MW started telling me "you really need to push NOW". I keep on saying wait wait, as I didn't have much energy to push by this time as i haven't slept for 7 nights, my both legs were so swollen meaning it was very hard to be in any position really. Then they started to push my pelvic and tried to pull the baby out. After a while, baby came out with full of meconium as she was so distress, wasn't breathing well for 9 mins so I couldn't hold here immediately. I keep on asking where is my baby, MWs put her right next to me but started rubbing her vigorously and put a tool to help her breathe. Both MWs started counting her heartbeat so loud, then there was a pause and head nodding like no its not working. Husband looked so stressed I keep on asking what's happening. MWs immediately called ambulance and they arrived within 3,4 mins as we live right next to the KCH. They said I lost 700ml of blood and baby had shoulder distortia plus lack of breathing for 9 mins so need to go to hospital. This all happened in 24th July, 2015, she was born at 1:46am.
So I was catheterised and we both were taken to hospital, I was given IV and 2 stitches on my perineum. Baby got checked by pediatrician, did heel prick test and vitamin K injection was provided. We thought everything is well and sorted and got discharged next day.
I was very surprised by my different body after birth. I felt very weak and wiggly, back was so sore couldn't even stand up straight.
Breastfeeding was bit challenging for 3 days. But after that I had severe pain at my back, lower abdomen and down below. I took paracetamol, ibuprofen, even took sleeping pills to see if its get better after some sleep. But I ended up crying on my bed. My husband came to check on me in the bedroom and I bursted with tears. I was so worried about baby, I felt I am going to die. I was thinking about all those maternal deaths I could think of while thinking about my newborn baby.
Husband immediately took me to A&E, it took ages to happen anything: actions were so slow at the hospital. They did the blood, urine test and swob, said there was an infection but couldn't tell which: bladder, UTI, PID, kidney was it. I was given general antibiotics which should treat any infections. Next day I was supposed to be discharged with tablet antibiotics but they treated me so late that the infection got enough time to get stronger again and had to spend 3 nights at hospital bed with breast feeding baby. Back was extremely sore, passing urine was awful (stinging pain), lower abdomen was extremely painful even with painkillers. But some how had to manage.
Finally got discharged on 1st August, Saturday with loads of painkillers and antibiotics for 7 days. Now at home trying to rest but husband completed paternity leave today so went back to work. I feel restless at home anyway. And I don't have my family here so me, husband and our baby now. Have to manage everything on our own.
I have been through so much pain and scary time where I thought I am going to die or something might happen to my baby. I will never forget this moment of my life. Baby is here with us, she looks very healthy, eating and sleeping well. She was 4.43kilos when she was born. After 9 days she didn't lost any weight but now she is 4.66 kilos. She is so chubby and cute with lots of black shiny hair like mine :) Each time I hold her into my arms, I burst with tears with happiness. She is being my treatment, my medicine to heal me soon. After all these, it was worth having her. I always like having kids, we both did and now she is here and I feel the most happiest woman on earth with perfect family. Cute daughter with very loving and caring husband. He is still worried if the baby got some brain damage as she couldn't breathe for 9 mins. But I hope everything will be fine. And even though something bad really occur she will still be my darling baby. The baby I longed for so long in my life.
My goodness, this looks like a short story book. Hope I don't bore anyone. I just wanted to let everyone know about my strange pregnancy and birth and postnatal condition. So that if someone else are going through the same condition just think that you are not alone. Someone. And yes we are and have to be strong to cope with it.
Happy reading!