I'm 5+4 and last night when I went to loo and wiped I had brown blood, over night I had period type pain and this morning and all day this has been red. There has not been any clotting type stuff and its not masses, I have a panty liner in and it seems to be when I wee. The pain seems to have subsided. I hadn't really had what I thought to be pregnancy symptoms, I have had a headache for the past 4 days and felt a bit lightheadedness, my boobs had over the past few days felt a bit pins and needles. Obvs I'm gutted and can't stop crying. I've been lurking about on what would've been my "due" month thread and I made my booking in appnt with midwife I was so excited. Now I feel like a bit of an idiot really. My dp is all hopeful whereas really it is was it is isn't it? Am I meant to do anything as I'm so early? Do I bother the doctors or not? I'm stuck between just wanting to lie in bed and sob and the fact that really I should just feel grateful for what I have, I do have three ace dc,s! And am so lucky I almost feel like I'm being ridiculously silly. I'm just babbling I know now but I just feel so terribly sad and confused and grasping at any tiny bit of hope. I don't even know what I expect anyone to say if they read this. I don't have anyone else in rl to tell as I hadn't told anyone nor do I want to now. Perhaps it's just knowing it's out there among people who may understand how sad I feel,it's like my eyes won't stop leaking.