I knew I was pregnant with no 2 and no 3. My pregnancy symptoms are exactly the same as my period symptoms!
However, I had zero symptoms and was adamant I was not pregnant! I just realised at the start of September, ironically on the day dd2 started school, that my period hasn't come, but told hubby not to worry as I had no symptoms. He rushed off to sainsburys local in the pouring rain and bought the worlds bought the worlds most expensive pregnancy test! I said there's no point as in not pregnant, but weed on it all the same, and gave if to him to hold and wait. I put the kettle on, and I heard 'FFS'!!!
We were pregnant. Couldn't believe it.
We were trying and did want one more, we hadn't tried that month! We wanted to concentrate on dd2 starting school... Bobs your uncle!
We were in shock though, even though we did want one more. In shock all week... Wobbling 'shit?, what have we done', even though it was what we wanted. Silly isn't it? But, it just hit us. I then became paranoid,,. What if it's twins? Hadn't thought of that!!! Eek! At 8 weeks we told parents and siblings and best friends.
Our best friends let us down the most to be honest... You're mad. You're crazy.. One couple we've barely seen since we told them it's like they're cross with us. If she calls me 'that crazy lady' one more time, I think I'll scream!
We paid for a private early scan as I had to see that it was just one.. And thank god, it was. And, more importantly, everything was fine.
We had the 20 week scan and found out it was another boy, rounding us up to two girls and two boys.. And people's reaction has improved. Saying how clever we were?!?!? School mum friends and some other friends have been so lovely and supportive and ask how I all the time, but I still feel quite sad about our group of best friends... They've really let me down. And, they were meant to be godparents when we get all four kids christened later in the summer.
I'm 35 weeks now, and everyone around us is excited and are being lovely and supportive... I'm really 'feeling the love'!
That couple who I said were cross are still distant and a bit odd... I know there were hoping to fall pregnant this year, the first time for them, so maybe there's some sour grapes, which I kind of understand really.. But it has changed our friendship now, which is shame. Hopefully when the baby's here they'll come round, I'm sure they will, as they're not bad people, they obviously just find it difficult.
Sorry for waffling on, but I do have a point... Thateven though we wanted no4, you still have wobbles here and there, and we still needed to come to 'terms with it', as daft as that sounds.
You always worry crazily about the other 3 and how you're going to be resetting the clock back to zero with a newborn baby in the house, and if it would affect your career etc... Money etc..
But, through all the fog of intense tiredness, sickness, aches and pains, sore boobs in the first trimester.. We somehow got to the 12 week scan and we then told the kids... It was lovely, the girls are so so so excited and ask me everyday how the baby is... And they help me so much with keeping the house tidy with their toys, asking if they could bend down and pick something up.. As my back got quite bad around week 23.. Little boy is none the wiser being 2 yrs, but he's been happy and relatively easy really, such a good boy.
Then, 20 week scan, finding out the sex, and as we had given EVERYTHING away, I started to get it all back in... Second hand , new... And Ive really enjoyed shopping for a little blue boy! I've met up with other pregnant Mums and have a couple of bump buddies, which has been nice. Then, the last few months have flown. And here were are, 5 weeks to go, if that.