Please don't flame me, I know what I'm doing is terrible

[itsmyfirsteek]

I nned some help. I'm almost 20 weeks and I'm still smoking. I have horrendous anxiety and I've convinced myself that at my scan on monday I'm going to have lost my baby. I've tried so so hard and have gone fro 30 to 10 but I know this is still not good enough.
I had a scan at 18 weeks and all was fine but I'm so scared. What are the chances that its all over and I don't know?

I smoked all the way through my first pregnancy. I didn't want to, but I couldn't stop. I was in a violent abusive relationship so smoking was really the least of my worries. I never told the midwives though, thought it was best kept to myself. I was really shocked when the midwife checked the placenta after birth and could tell that I was a smoker from looking at.

Thankfully my daughter was fine and healthy. I did eventually get out of that relationship, quit smoking and have been smoke free for 18 years.

One thing that really helped me to quit, which I didn't know when I was pregnant, was that the physical withdrawal symptoms get worse and worse for 3 days and then disappear completely. The habit of smoking can take longer, but physically you only have to get through 3 days.

3 days for you baby's wellbeing. You can do it. Good luck.

I was a smoker, but I had went off fags and the smell made me heave. I had to smoke around family/people that didn't know as I didn't want them to clock on. I have the odd day where I want one so I have one or I just trick myself into not having one because I've had food or something... My other half went onto electronic fags which are a lot cheaper than buying fags! It was like £8 for two filter cartridges which was the equivalent to 80 fags...
I know a lot of people who smoked during pregnancy and have healthy children! It's entirely your choice but if you want to stop then evaluate your choices! Good luck x