Smoking

[xmasevebundle]

I know this is quite shocking and i still dont believe im doing this thread.

I started smoking when i was 16 after a break up with my first boyfriend, ever since, its the ONLY thing to make me calm and not get angry.

I have been anger managment a few times due to a family death

So when i found out i was pregnant i gave up cold turkey, im now 25+4.

I have a shit pregnancy, spilt stomach muscles, endless stress with the babys father,threats, my mum and dad been in a horiffic car crash which has left me shaken and im doing everything around the house.

I went to the shop and got a packet of 10 and felt a lot better, but i went again today to get baccy this time.

I dont smoke millions and millions, but its such a stress relief for me.

Im thinking do i stop and carry on being stressed through out or have a fag here and there when i get pissed off.

Has anyone else been in this situation??

No apologies need Jakey but thank you!

I smoked during my pregnancies.
I tried to give up during ds1's pregnancy, I really did, but maybe didn't try hard enough.
I didn't feel guilty about it, was hard for me to think of a baby, I still thought all about me (selfish I know).
When he was born I felt guilty, but luckily for both of us, he is fine.
I clearly didn't feel guilty enough because i didn't quit with ds2 either. He is 3.6yrs now and has asthma.

I really understand your battle OP, I really do. Is so hard, but keep trying.
I have no advice for you, obviously, but seeing what ds2 goes through when his asthma kicks in kills me. he is on steroids atm because he has had breathing difficulty today and last night. I did that to him.

Keep trying to give up OP, everytime you say no to the cravings is a step in the right direction. 3 fags is better than 10.

Im not craving them though thats the thing!
Its hard to explain, i mean i smoked 50g per week then went cold i was stressed out and i smoked when it was most important and i didnt even know(even got drunk) I feel awful for it all.

I dont understand why i have gone back to it because i know i will be back to sqaure one in a weeks time? I have relapsed badly, even buying baccy instead of fags.

I have been pushed to far and now im sitting on the egde i just need to be pushed back again.

I never regret anything in my life apart from starting to smoke, i even thought of the £5 i spent walking back from the shop, i could of got some nice bubble and a few sweets.

I feel like messaging my friend that smokes and tell her to come a get it so i dont have it infront of me!!

You need to think about silverymoon's commendably honest post above OP.

It's your choice to carry on smoking while pregnant. You can stop. I managed it and so have mny other long-term smokers.

I'm sorry you've been having a shitty time but you need to stop kidding yourself and get a grip.

Stop thinking about why you went back, and questioning whether you're addicted. All smokers are addicted whether they smoke 40 a day, or one or two once a week down the pub.
You have been through a tough time but cigarettes do not relax you, relieve stress or help the situation in any other way. It's all just a trick.
And don't take it one day at a time - like others have said, make the choice yourself to quit once and for all. No questions, no arguments. You know you have to.
It sounds like you may not have much control over some other aspects of your life, but this is one aspect you can completely control, and it will make you feel so good.
I also highly recommend the Allen Carr Easy Way book. It's what I used, don't really know how it worked but it did. I can definitely say I do not miss smoking AT ALL, since the very early days and have not been remotely tempted once.
Good Luck!

Thought id update and tell you whats happened. Today is the last day, well rougly had one about 3?

Run(well wobbled) upstairs ripped my rizla up and chucked the baccy in the garden.

I feel better already, i wont smoke again, when i was smoking there was less movement by him and i think that flared me up.

I didnt even plan to rip the rizla up, i just got angry at myself! I have ordered the book from the libary and picking it up wednesday

Thank you all for your advice and support.

Fantastic, well done. It yet be really hard. We all get stressed (although obviously some people's lives have more triggers than others) the key is finding something that relaxes you without damaging you and costing you a fortune.

I have some aromatherapy liquid I sniff when I'm stressed at work, I think it's lavender and thyme scented. Is there something you enjoy that relaxes you? All the best.

I am going to buy myself some radox on wednesday, a treat. Think warm baths at night and more food will keep me a lot happier!!

I do feel guilty as i made DS smoke for 2 days, its better than 2 weeks or even months? I am just looking forward to a smokefree life.

I hate the smell of other people that smoke and my friend did a few weeks back and it sprung to my mind after i had the last fag that urgh i must smell like her which isnt pleasant!

Well done xmaseve.

Don't get yourself down by feeling guilty, you had a brief lapse and it's over now and, as you say, you can look forward to your smoke free life!

DC will be healthier, you'll be healthier and you won't spend money on fags. Good idea to think of other ways to treat yourself.

Stay strong. It is hard, but you know it's worth it.

Well done!! You can do it. Once you reached that decision you turned the corner, and I think that is what will keep you going-you decided to do this and you can, no matter what is going on around you.
Also well done for being honest enough to post in the first place, it was obvious you knew what to do and needed that extra support. So many people go though same.
I'm coming up to 12 weeks and I was still smoking before I knew I was pregnant. For me, I found out, had 3 cigarettes on the Sunday, then decided to go cold turkey on the Monday. By the lunchtime I had bought a packet of 10 and smoked 2. I felt so guilty. I got rid of the rest and quit for good the following day. 6 weeks today no cigarettes.
What helped me was:
-Visualising my baby with a cigarette in it's mouth. That is too much to bear.
-Alan Carr's book after I quit ( from the library too-I quit once before with it and it is really really good)
-Lozenges ( mini lozenges) for first week or so but you must check with MW or doctor if these ok for you.
-Electronic cig in first week which was so rank, but helped for missing the physical smoking bit.
-Smoking cessation support over the phone. They were so lovely and enthusiastic.
My advice would be to get support from MW and smoking cessation even if you go cold turkey because the support does make a difference.

It was very hard and I felt incredibly stressed at times, but I got through it. I put a bit of weight on with eating but that is absolutely fine! I am so so happy I quit. Best of luck to you xxx