Im 22weeks,19 and single.
Me and my ex broke up when i was 5w i ended it because he told me to get rid of it. Our relationship was coming to an end. We was together for 8 months and lived together for 5 months and even bought a dog. We no longer talk because of threats and arguments hes made towards me. He dont even no hes got a son.
Since then i dont go out i stay in, ive hardly got no friends.
My family do support me(i live with my mum and dad). I argue with my dad all the time going on for months and a few days he lost it and punched me in the head. So i am never talking to him again. Mum isnt too.
Yesterday she started shouting at me and now shes not having it. I said i will move out when the babys here. She said so your using us yet again(i pay my rent and buy my own food, clean up after myself).
She went mental, Ive always had problems when i was younger my brother abused me which i have only told my ex boyfriend and my close friend(she dont bother with me half the time) I left a school before i got kicked out and been bouncing from college to college l. My mum dont no about my brother as hes the perfect son, hes got a degree and my mum thinks the sun shines out his arse.
I do eat and i do love my son deeply even no hes not here. I have not been to the doctors i cant face anyone. I see the midwife not this next week and i feel i could breakdown.
Id have to move into a mother and baby unit which i dont care. I cant move until ive had my son whos due 24-12-12.
Sometimes i wish my son had a different mother as i feel for him, i cry because his dad dont want him and it breaks my heart.
I will give him the best in life and the love for him will be greater than anyone. When i get upset he gives me a kick and i stop crying.