May 2007 The sun is out the sky is blue

[charleymouse]

theres not a cloud to spoil the view.

[Tillyscoutsmum]

Charley I can't begin to imagine how you feel. I'm sure there isn't a day that goes by when you don't think of B, but "big events" like going to school are bound to bring it to the fore even more. Tis most certainly not f**king fair. (((((hugs from me too))))))

[Charleymouse]

Thanks Jammy and Tillysmum, you have just made me cry again but in a nice way, you know at least someone gives a shit kind of way.

I just think so many people don't even mention B in case they upset me. Like you know saying his name will make me lose it. Well some days yes it may well do but each day people ignore he was ever here and effectively sweep him under the carpet as it were is worse IYSWIM.

Hope you are both okay, it looked like your holiday was brill Jam. Is it Tour De France all the way in your house TSM? I can not believe that French TV car incident

How did our May 07ers get so big though, it is frightening and making me feel old

Thank-you again, did not honestly expect anyone to even see this thread as it so far off the radar these days. Much love CM xxx

[Tillyscoutsmum]

:-( charley. As you say, I'm sure people are just trying to avoid "upsetting" you but going about it in the wrong way. Feel free to message me any time you need a chat (not that I'll be much help but I'm happy to provide an ear/shoulder any time)

Yy to Tdf. All day every day. Only one week to go though !

Can't believe our babies are off to school. It's Tils last day at play school on Friday. I've heard her practising the songs for the year end concert. I'm definitely going to need tissues !

I was going to suggest meeting up with Jen at some point in the Hols. It'd be great if you could make it as well (and anyone else who fancies a trip oop north ish)

[ShowOfHands]

Do you know I think there isn't a parent alive who doesn't wobble when a child starts school. But for you lovely charley it's about so much more than that. Every thing that G achieves is something that your beautiful little B didn't even get a shot at. Everywhere he goes is somewhere B will never see. And if you need to wobble, grump, wail and scream through the bits that bring that into sharp focus then you do it and you talk about B and feel angry/sad/robbed of all the things he isn't doing. Rubbish people like me who haven't been there and don't live with it on a daily basis, see only the obvious and that's the number of children around you today. You're that unfair thing, a woman who has a child that other people just can't see. But he's always there for you and I promise you I do my best to remember that. With B and other babies born to friends who had to say goodbye a lifetime too soon. Talk about him as much as you want on here. Rant away.

I'm a bit sad that this thread isn't as active as it should be. We shared quite an intense and peculiar time and I think once upon a time we were all here daily, procrastinating and obsessing.

Let's catch up.

Tils, how many times a day does the war cry 'gwan Cav' get intoned in your house? I'm more interested in lovely Geraint tbh. And poor Bradders. DH was in bloody tears.

[Tillyscoutsmum]

Here here SOH. I miss our thread

DH has a man crush on Geraint. We were gutted for Wiggo. He seemed on great form and with Contador clean not himself and the Schlecks too busy looking out for each other, it was a fantastic opportunity for him to get a podium place. Still, Cav's 19th stage win today and we're hoping he brings the green jersey home

[JamInMyWellies]

Well wittering on about the ruddy tour is not going to get us all posting again!

What news any babies apart from G&T?

Tils yes yes to meet up seeing as our camping trip fell apart. Am free any time from Aug 23rd.

Am off to Abu Dhabi in a couple of wks then many weekends of weddings coming up.

The monsters are now utterly notorious and have become rather well known in the village but to be honest are bloody hilarious. A waggled his willie out of his shorts this morning and told me his willie was hungry and in need of breakfast. This us the sort if thing I know live with.

Happy last week of nursery all

Big hugs charley. Xxx

[Tillyscoutsmum]

Jam. I have been brainwashed. Its either Tour talk or no talk in our household for the last 2 weeks

No babies here. Anyone else ? Any gossip ?

Jam - Abu Dhabi ? Haven't you only just got back from Florida jetsetter. We're off Eurocamping in Brittany next week. Glamorous eh ?

at willie waggling

[Charleymouse]

Scuse typing as on phone just wanted to jump up and down and wave at everyone. Thank you so much for all your kind words. G has been back at school today and seems to love it, phew.

Will log on tomorrow and catch up proper like, but lovely to see you all and would love to catch up more on here or in the flesh. Night night, sleep tight.

Aaaagh will not post blardy phone
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[JamInMyWellies]

Good Luck to all our big boys and girls as they start their new adventure this week.

[Charleymouse]

Hope everyone is having a good week at school. Is anyone not going until January?
Miss you guys. Mwah, mwah !

Showy much congratulating to you and yours on your new arrival.

Weigh in day today as have been trying to lose weight. Here goes.

Anyone watch BB?

[Charleymouse]

Happy New Year lots of love CM xxx

[Tillyscoutsmum]

Happy New Year to you all xx

[Charleymouse]

Hi Tillyscoutsmum, hope you are having a lovely start to 2012!
Did you have a good Christmas?

[Tillyscoutsmum]

Hi CM

Yes thank you - really lovely Christmas. Just the right mix of crazy busy and loafing around doing nothing. How about you ?

[Charleymouse]

Yes thanks we were at Center Parcs for Christmas and it was lovely. Not sure how we managed to get our stuff home though, I still have stuff at my mums to collect. Father Christmas was a bit naughty and got too much stuff, again. You would hink he would have learned from last year but oh no!

Nice to get home though. I am a bit of a home bird at heart.

Going to have words later as DH has just promised DD1 a hamster tomorrow. any advice anyone re hamster v gerbil v mouse.

[Tillyscoutsmum]

Gawd no ! I'm not good with rodenty type things. Isn't there a topic on here somewhere ??

I'd noticed you were at CP, but didn't realise it was for Christmas itself. Father Christmas bought far too much stuff here as well. I need to have words for next year

How's H doing ? Ferg has launched himself spectacularly into the terrible twos. He is an utter nightmare. I've never known tantrums like them !

[Charleymouse]

H doesn't tantrum as such but will not leave my side and is very feisty. So we are joined at the hip and she is very bossy. Loves Peppa pig and Ben and Holly and shouts at me and the telly until it comes on. Ok in hindsight she is well in the throes of the terrible twos!

Well today I am decluttering. Off to the tip and the charity shop tomorrow.

Will check out the rodent thread, cheers.

[Charleymouse]

Just after a bit of advice if anyone is lurking. Thought AF was late on 1 Jan so POAS in a bit of a panic and it was a BFN. Felt relieved but then also disappointed. DH says the same.

Does this mean we want another baby? Help not sure if I/we do or if I just feel sad that there will be no more but need to Manup and get over it. DCs have a couple of friends who have pregnant mums, a colleague is expecting twins (very jealous - can't help it but I have twin envy). Do I secretly just hope I would have twins which I know is practically impossible as I feel I should have them or do I just want another baby.

Do I just want more to fill a gap that can't be filled or do I want more. Gahh. I really don't know how I feel about this. DH says one more in the mix wouldn't be a bad thing but doesn't like the idea of me being pregnant/giving birth.

God I wish I had started this childbearing whilst I was in my prime instead of a doddering old wreck. I have to say the risk factors of being an older mum do concern me but are they that high?

I'm not sure if I should just concentrate on being a good mum to the lovely DCs I do have and not push my luck.

I think actually writing this down has clarified a bit of it for me and I think yes I probably do want another baby, not sure if we should though or if we will. Will keep you posted if any news.

[Tillyscoutsmum]

Hey Charley

I'm not sure I have any advice really. It definitely sounds as though you do want another Does it matter what the reasons are ?? You know you're not going to ever "replace" B, but perhaps you feel that your family needs 4 dc's in it ?

Do keep us posted. Very exciting

[Charleymouse]

Hi Tillyscoutsmum
more worrying than exciting I think. I think you are right I think I want another. Help I must be mad! Thinks of LG&T and actually I am quite sane. Well we have got a big enough car, a too small house, not enough eyes/hands/energy (delete as appropriate) but enough love so surely that is all they need. I think if it happens we will have to do it soon as I will be soo old.

Will keep you posted of any updates.

Are there any plans for a Northern meetup this spring or any meetup of any sort ladies anywhere? If anyone wants to come up this way they are more than welcome, I am always available for a cup of tea and a biccy if anyone is passing nearby.

Miss you guys
CM

[Charleymouse]

Happy 5th birthday tomorrow B & G xxx

Happy 5th birthday to all the May 07ers over the next 3 months xxx


God bless.

[Pinkjenny]

Happy Birthday B & G XXXXXXXXC

[Charleymouse]

Cheers PJ, good luck tomorrow, all will be well.

Can't believe my Mum has not even phoned all day.

[Charleymouse]

Happy Birthdays to all our May April-June 2007 babies


Congratulations April!

[elkiedee]

Hi to anyone who still reads this thread!