Hi Suis, I really feel for you, yes b/f is very emotionally draining, I struggled desperatley with DD, she dropped a lot of weight (something that I now realise was not an issue as she atually just dropped to the centile she has grown along since then!) and I fed her constantly and even used a supplementer to get extra milk down her which was a nightmare, so fiddly and not what I thought b/f was about. When she was about 5 weeks old there was one period of time when she fed for 36 hours constantly (no joke, I only got up off the sofa to get a drink and go to the loo, the rest of the time she was feeding ) There were so many times I said I was going to pack it in as all I ever saw of her was one ear or the other whilst she was feeding. She was very unsettled between feeds and only fell asleep at the breast, if I moved her from there she just screamed. Looking back I realise my body was just not getting time to replenish it's milk supply and she was sucking for comfort. DS2 could be like this, however I have made the decision that when I think he is full to take him off and put him in his sling, if he is full he tends to fall asleep quickly and if he doesn't then I know he needs a bit more. I do empathise with that feeling of your body not being your own, I sometimes have DD on one side, DS2 on the other and the DH wants a cuddle (no, sod off, I just want to be left alone is my reaction ) It does get better and they do get much more self reliant, I only really enjoyed feeding DD when she got to the stage where she could fix well without a lot of fiddling (4 months ish IIRC). As for the crying, I have that at the moment, just looking at my three gorgeous kids can set it off! Think I a m very hormonally imbalanced and any little thing is tipping me over the edge , but I am a bit of a 'crier" anyway, lots of things set me off
Hairycatapiller, yes the brown belt is the one before the black, he's 11, the reason I am extra pround is he has aspergers syndrome so finds many things very difficult, still for him!
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DS2 is doing well, he's a chunky, happy boy, big smiles and lots of babbling. He has also started to drool ans DD did at around this time then no teeth for about another 9 months! Was told by a paediatric nurse hat dribbling often coincdes with the digestive system begining to mature.
Took DS2 for his first swimming leson last week, he loved the water 'till he had to do a swim at the end and then he went bright red in the face and screamed very angryly, all the other babies were quite a bit older (6 months plus) and took their swims in their stride!