October 2011 - we can hardly believe its true, our babies are turning two!!

[MummyDuckAndDuckling]

Hi!

Hope you don't mind me starting a new thread as once again, birthday season has begun and the first of our October babies are turning 2! Would be lovely to hear from everyone past and present
Ill try copy over all the stats again when I'm next on the laptop.

Hope everyone is well :)

[CallingAllEngels]

ips glad that N is feeling better.

Managed to get M's appt moved to next week.

I am slowly but surely falling apart at the seams

Went back to hospital last week for final (or so I thought) appt re: mc but there is something clinging on somewhere that has caused my HCG levels to go back up. I'm definitely not pregnant, though I have the tiredness, emotions and unfortunately the stomach that says otherwise. I'm just so tired of it all. I want my body to go back to normal so we can ttc again. I just feel like I'm in limbo. I can't concentrate on anything so am way behind in schoolwork. ave missed loads of classes due to illness/hospital appts that am slipping further and further behind.

M has also decided that now is the perfect time to get up at the crack of dawn and the middle of the night, not sleep during the day, make beditme intoa drama and stick to me like a limpet. I need matchsticks for my eyes, can't get a thing done and everytime I think I've pulled myself together I last a day before bursting into tears.

Typing with M on my lap as he watches Bob the builder and has lost interest in my laptop for 5 fucking minutes

Going to the UK this weekend to see my family and friends (inc BF over from NZ) which am looking forward to BUT also know I should be packing right now and just can't face it.

Had a massive row with DH on Thursday as well - was home ill with flu/cold and he couldn't keep M downstairs to let me sleep. I came down after M woke me up by jumping all over me to find DH sitting on his arse on his tablet. I feel like I've been so supportive with his depression in supporting him practically by doing more childcare and housework, giving him an extra couple of hours in bed at the weekend if M is up early, and he can't even look after M for one chuffing day

Sorry for ranting away but I honestly feel so shit at the moment. I feel like life is such a balancing act right now, and if one thing upsets that balance I just can't cope

[strawberrypenguin]

eng lovely that all sounds horrible and for you. Hope the hospital can get to the bottom of it soon. I don't really know what else to say just be gentle with yourself and feel free to vent away here. Fx that M's appointment goes ok too.

[MummyDuckAndDuckling]

Engels, that sounds tough for you at the moment I don't know what to say except what strawberry has said. Take care of yourself and vent away all you need. Are you taking M with you this wkend? Great about his apt, such a relief not to have to wait so long

How is everyone else doing? Things here good. Finally got all paper work stuff sorted for my job so I need to call them tomorrow to see what happens next as I'm only supply and they haven't said much about how it all works. Fingers crossed for some work now!!

Things re S dad have been going well. Haven't seen him again since few weeks ago as me and S were away for the weekend so I think there was talk of maybe meeting up wkend coming. I have a bit of a problem now though and I knew it would happen, just didn't think this soon..my feelings for him are starting to come back and it's hurting me so bad . At first, any talk was strictly re S and then it became general chit chat, now it's verging on more and I can't stop myself going along with it. I really need to though as I'm still so angry with him over how he acted for past few years, plus I'm sure he is with someone else (I was told this through mutual friends, he hasn't said his self)

[PenelopeLane]

engels that sounds hard, I hope you're managing to walk that thin tightrope of keeping it together - and feel free to offload here as much as you need to as well! I hope that your trip to the UK recharges your batteries at least a little.

Has M dropped his day sleep entirely? A is now only having one every few days, and it's making for much longer days and more tv

Duck how confusing it must be to have feelings for S's dad still, after all this time! As long as you look after yourself I suppose and somehow manage to separate him as your ex and him as S's dad, which is pretty easy for me to write as I've never been in that situation but imagine it's really really hard x 100000. When I was single I used to write lists of ex's bad points to stop falling for them again which used to help, although to my shame also had one for DH written when I thought we were breaking up after about a month together that I hope I destroyed

Baby L is now almost 6 weeks and her wind is having better periods now so more cooing and looking at me and quality interaction rather than always crying which is lovely. I went to a GP about her wind and turns out it's my milk flow being too fast so am currently working on that

[MummyDuckAndDuckling]

Thanks pen. I need to pull myself together and not allow it. He's hurt me too many times before and I won't let it happen again. I just can't help but be drawn in to what he's saying!

6 weeks already? Where is the time going!!

It was so cold here last night, down to -3 at one point! S came through to my bed at 1.30am and asked to sleep with me. Normally I would've put her back but she was too cosy

[CallingAllEngels]

Thanks strawb I am currently scoffing goats cheese instead of biscuits!

Sounds tough Duck . Perhaps pull together in one word doc all your MN posts that talk about how he was treating you and how he made you feel to remind you what a dick he was.

M is constantly coming into our bed in the night. Atm I feel so shit I'm putting him back and staying with him in his room until he's calm then coming back to bed, but he's usually padding back in within half an hour and I don't have the energy to get out of bed again and take him back. Last night he woke at 11.30, and ended up with us for the whole night (I had put him back once). At my wits end - trying to remember the last time he slept in his own bed all night. Even wondering about putting up a big bed for him (and then I can sleep there if he insists on coming back in with us!). Tbh I feel like I just need to get through what's happening right now and deal with the sleeping later.

Was nippy here too this morning (though not quite below freezing!). Have my fx for you re: work duck.

Glad L is doing better with wind pen. Are you on the nano thread under a different name? (someone there knows me but I don't know who it is if it isn't you!)

M is picking and choosing when he naps.
Thurs - no,
Fri - yes,
Sat - yes but only because I went to have sleep with him and pinned him down for 20 minutes before he nodded off
Sun - yes
Mon - no

he's at nursery right now so hoping he sleeps. He's also started being really naughty - pushing the limits of what he can do.

This change in behaviour has coincided with him moving up a group at nursery - wonder if he's copying the big kids!

Just waiting nervously at home before I head to hospital for my appointment. freaking out a little as someone on another thread suggested I might have had a molar pregnancy. Would explain my symptoms but would also involved further treatment, small possibility of chemo and would have to wait a minimum of 6 months before ttc again depending on what the outcome is (longer if chemo involved).

Aaaargh - I know I shouldn't google but I can't help it!

DH is at work so a friend is coming with me. Good to have another pair of ears (especially when it's all in Dutch!).

[CallingAllEngels]

Dr said def not molar as HCG nowhere near high enough. HCG had gone up again a little bit.

I just have to wait it out and be patient. They wouldn't do a D&V (if that's what it's called?) because there's nothing visible on the scan so they wouldn't know where to look.

Just have to go back next week again fro HCG checks. If it really doesn't go down by itself I will have an injection but they'd rather let nature take it's course if possible. Injection would have impact on when we could take ttc further. Dr said it could take 3-4 weeks for HCG to drop naturally.

I'm taking the next 2 days off work. So frustrating to still feel so pg

Thanks for your support ladies

[PenelopeLane]

engels Nope not me on the NaNo thread - not this year! Although would still like to finish last year's effort, have done 65000 words but suspect I need another 20k or so to finish the story.

Glad to hear it's not a molar pregnancy as well. And A is in my bed more often now too with DH moving to the spare room , I get too tired otherwise - so no need to beat yourself up about it, sometimes sleep is the most important thing at all costs!

Brrr that sounds cold duck, It's slowly warming up here, can't wait until summer

[strawberrypenguin]

Glad it's not molar eng hope whatever it is sorts itself out soon.

Brrr duck and I thought it was getting cold here! It must be really hard for you with S's dad I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like, you are always so strong don't let him mess you about again

W's talking is coming on in leaps and bounds now I think moving up a group at nursery has really helped. I asked him where his juice was earlier and his response was 'umm somewhere' I didn't even know he knew the word! Was so cute and very funny he looked around aimlessly before answering too! He did then go and fetch his juice

[KillashandraRee]

Engels sending you a huge (((hug))) Hope things get better must be horrible to feel pregnant and not be :-(
Have you said anything to DH about doing more or do you avoid because of his depression?

Duck must be tough with S's Dad. I think earlier advice is right you need to remind yourself of all the things he did that were wrong. It's ok for him to have a relationship with S and you will facilitate that for her sake but that's it. He's got a lot to prove after being AWOL for so long.

Strawb that's so cute. E's talking so much more now too I love it.

E is poorly he has tonsillitis so have had no sleep and he won't let me do anything just cries the minute I put him down. I'm exhausted! Have big couple of days at work so am hoping he sleeps tonight but he's refusing to go to bed at the moment....

[MrsHende]

All the above for all who need them! Engels, sounds awful, I really hope you begin to feel better soon. Mummy, keep the heid lassie!! Stay strong, one step at a time. Killa - some for you too, you must be exhausted.

Terrible day here. L is fine (in a nearly two year old, tantruming way!), but lots of issues with our house sale and buy a stressful day at work tomorrow, period started so still not pg and DH is working till 10pm all week.

Roll on Friday and wine o'clock!

[KillashandraRee]

E just gone to sleep so am finally having dinner cold pizza as I was too optimistic earlier

MrsH and for you too!

[MummyDuckAndDuckling]

Thanks ladies, I've got my sensible head on now! Blaming hormones for the crazy talk . It's been interesting though as I feel like I've gotten to know him all over again, a lot has happened with him (and me!) the past 2 years! I don't know if I will ever forgive him for just walking away for all that time, but I coming round to a better way of thinking with regards to him getting to know S.

Love hearing how all our babies are growing and coming up with new words . We had such a funny moment tonight with S while at my parents for dinner. It's been S, me and my mums birthdays all within the past month and S is still in the wishing us 'happy birthday mummy/gran' stage. She said to my mum tonight to close her eyes as age had a birthday treat for her. My mum played along and S went off on the hunt for something and came back a few mins later with my mums jumper she found laying in her room. All funny and we had a laugh etc. next she said it was papas turn and he was to close his eyes for his birthday treat. Again she wanders off, 5 mins later she came walking back through to my dad shouting 'here your birthday treat papa!!' Carrying my mums bra!!!! Honestly, we all had tears from laughing and S thought it was all so funny!! One of those moments I don't think ill forget

Has anyone's dc been called for this flu spray? I'm really unsure if I should get her it or not, I don't really see the point as I don't think she would be overly exposed to it.. My friend who is a gp advised for it thought and was surprised she hadn't been called yet.

[strawberrypenguin]

That's so cute duck love that she's still giving people presents! RE the flu 'jab' W has had it but I had to fight to get it for him. I don't know if its different in Scotland but I was told by the doctors receptionist that they had to be 2 BEFORE September to be eligible for the jab and therefore W wasn't eligible and I guess none of the Oct group would be! I went to his GP as I felt he should be eligible as he's had a kidney op, she agreed so he's had it. Really painless he just sat and stared at them as they pushed the stuff up his nose! In and out in under a minute.
So I guess the end result of that ramble is that S hasn't been called because she's too young.

[MummyDuckAndDuckling]

Oh I didn't realise that strawberry re the dates. S is 30th sept so wondering if she makes it by a day. Ill google around and see what I can find. I honestly doubt ill get it but I'm curious

[strawberrypenguin]

I didn't realise either until I tried to book W in for his!

[TallulahPumpkin]

Engles So sorry you've had it bad recently. You're def due some good luck soon. I can feel it...

Whoever recommended 'The Big Night Night Book' Thank You. Seb LOVES it. We have to read it at least 3 times before bed. I couldn't face reading it a fourth time yesterday so he decided to 'read' it himself, cue him pointing to things going 'night night', 'sock', 'shoeson', bouncing ball', 'sleeping birdies' etc....so cute.

He's also started something else really cute; our cat is called Stanley but he's often know as either Stan-boy or Stanley-Cat (don't ask !). Seb has obviously heard us saying this randomly and now calls him a combination of the two: 'Danley Boi'. So cute

Mummy re the flu jab, I was going to phone the GP to get it but realised Seb was born a bit too late. So funny with the bra!

[KillashandraRee]

Tally might have to get that book it sounds good.

Engels how're things? Hope you're feeling a bit better x

Does anyone have any advice of clocks to tell DC's when it is morning/ when to stay in bed? We're thinking of putting E in proper bed when we get back from holiday and I want him to be able to check when it's time to get up

Had 12 week scan yesterday but the baby wouldn't get in position for tests so have to go again on Thursday. Have manic week at work and have to pack so really wanted scan sorted and to know all was ok by now.

Any hints on what to pack? 2 weeks in gran canaria and I cannot think what to pack (too sleep deprived after E's tonsillitis)

Pen how's L now are you getting any more sleep? After four nights of up every two hours I've been sadly reminded of what it's like with a newborn and am panicking slightly how I'll manage with two.

Ipswitch and Cheshire how're the bumps coming along?

[MrsHende]

Jealous of your holiday Killa! Have a great time. Sorry the scan wasn't as you hoped, let's hope the wee bean gets himself sorted into the right position for next time!

I can't believe L is two tomorrow! Just had a lovely evening wrapping presents and getting ready for the morning, can't wait to see her face.

How are you feeling this weekend Engels? Is DH pulling his weight a bit more? I hope so.

[CallingAllEngels]

Hi ladies,

Just a quick wave from the UK. Heading back home this afternoon after Sunday lunch with my parents. Has been good for my head to get away. Physically still tired and a bit nauseous. Though had the best part of a bottle of wine on Friday which didn't help and M's sleep is still all over the place.

Will catch up properly with the thread when I'm back home.

Happy birthday L!

[CheshireDing]

Hi Ladies < waves > I have been a stressed out misery so buggered off for a while. We only just had the new carpets laid last week and I finished work on Wednesday so have been trying to put the house back together initially after the boiler flood (2 months in total !) Plus No2 has only just turned from breech in the last 2 weeks so with having a destroyed house where P only had about 3 toys out she could play with and the risk of a c-section and 10 hours working days and a sick cat, dog, DH, me AND P, I am knackered - but now starting to perk up (excluding knackeredness)

There are so fab Birthday cakes on fb, very impressed with the finish too, they are look so lovely and smooth and free of flour

Sorry to hear No2 didn't stick Engels, I hope you are feeling a bit better now after your trip back to the UK.

Am very of Killas 2 weeks in the sunshine ! Enjoy. I always end up packing very little - swim stuff and a few day and eve clothes - I just rotate (although maybe I am just trampy)

Glad S likes the book Tallulah, it's quite a quick bedtime read too which is always a bonus (unlike the Gruffalo)

MW came yesterday and dropped off a delivery pack for our HB, DC2 needs to stay in until Wednesday then we are at 37 weeks - although she did say a few times "if it turns up before Wednesday we can't force you to go in to hospital" (so for the sake of the odd day I would prob just dig my heels in). I think it's unlikely it will be turning up yet though. I hate not knowing when they are turning up - I like to plan stuff.

P met Peppa Pig yesterday, OMG how excited was she ! Her talking is amazing yesterday evening she said "I saw Peppa Pig and waved when she go for dinner" (this is because Pig Security told her Peppa was going for dinner). I was well impressed she remembered. Some speech is not so good - "I was on the floor and crying and I was sad" (after I made her do time out on Saturday) :( :(

[CallingAllEngels]

DH and I have had words about sharing responsibilities with M and housework more killa . Especially with the last month and the fact that bed time is not as simple as it used to be, I’ve made it clear that I will NOT be doing 6 out of 7 bedtimes anymore! Hope E is feeling better. Have a great holiday and good luck with scan.

I would love to know how to get M to stay in bed too. Magic formulas welcome! I need more sleep!

MrsH sorry to hear you’re having a tough time as well. Thanks for the and . Most appreciated!

chesh sounds like you’ve been dealing with so much. Try to enjoy your ML.

Feeling much better after our weekend away. Was definitely what I needed to do to sort my head out. Heading back to work tomorrow morning and then have hospital appointment in the afternoon so fx levels have gone down.

Had appt for M’s tongue today and they’ve agreed to remove lump, especially given that it’s bled quite heavily the last week (3 times) and is now back to the a=size it was in August so it’s either burst of a bit has fallen off (hence bleeding). May be a few months yet though.

Okay, my MN time today is nearly up. Have to get dinner on and have a mountain of marking waiting for me (o joy!).

Thanks for your ongoing support ladies. It really does feel like we’re old friends chatting away about our toddlers…you’re my first MN friends

[strawberrypenguin]

Good that they will remove the lump for M eng hope he's not waiting too long it sounds horrible for him.

Yay for carpets chesh hope the HB goes to plan!

Poor W is really under the weather at the moment we had him at ooh on Saturday -he's got a fungal infection in his penis and then he was sick this morning and when I got home from work today DH announced that cat has a poorly paw! She's limping but I think it's just a sprain

[strawberrypenguin]

How did the appointment go tidy eng?

[CallingAllEngels]

Okay strawb. HCG has gone down slightly - now down to the same level as 2 weeks ago so finally going in the right direction. Have to go bavk in 2 weeks. Thanks for asking.

Had to take m back to his own bed 6 times last night. Was awake between 1 and 3am and then the little bugger rawled in at 6am as well. Yawn...it's going to be a long day!