Hi ladies, thanks for your kind replies, Trumpets, weirdly, I'm almost better when I go to a group, it gives me a reason t get up and dressed and I'm much happier when I'm out and about, it's when I'm stuck at home that I panic and feel inadequate and anxious.
I went t the Docs again today for my follow up and explained how the Anti-d's had made me feel, so we are trying a non drug approach. I'm taking Pregnacare Breastfeeding Vitamins to make sure I have enough Iron and B12 in me, that comes with a fish oil supplement too. Trumpets if you have any good info about using vitamins and suplements ti support mood id be interested in it. i was considering consulting a medical herbalist I know to enquire abt St Johns Wort or ither herbs ti make sure they are breastfeeding safe but im sticking with the Oregnacare for now as i know that it is.
I'm also making sure I get outside every day and see trees and eating/drinking enough...simple things but important for feeling better. If I can squeeze in a postnatal yoga then that's good too.
Finally the Doc has told me about MoodGym which is a free online CBT course which is can do at home so I'm going to give that a go.
I actually feel better for just admitting that I felt bad if that makes any sense. My Terrible Secret isn't that terrible, isn't really a secret and is comfortingly common.
Ps, I love Poo Bunny!