Pass Hello and welcome to the broken fanjo club! And you too BP It's a lonely fucking place to be! I am hopeful mine is very very fucking slowly getting better. Still can't fucking crouch without pain, hoovering, and heavier housework still hurts. As does bending, lifting anything heavy (hurts lifting O in car seat) stretching. Anything more than just light walking really. It's hard to describe. But yes, aching, and wanting to cup the old fanjo and push it back up is often felt! I often get stabbing pains, or dull aches. Quite a mixture. But then it involves a lot of layers, and inside and outside.
Ignoring the pain aspect, I am most distressed about the outside at the moment. The appearance of the scar is very fucking ugly. I am upset that I am left so scared down there. I wish I could show you a picture. But no. VQ would disown me for such behaviour
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I am also distressed about the lack of piss control. It is so random.
4 weeks til due back at work. Fairly certain I won't be back, and will take it month by month, as a week makes fuck all difference.
I am pissed off by not being able to go back. Actually I am angry about it, but it doesn't do me any good, so I won't get in to the reasons I am angry. I am seeing it as a positive that DP won't have sole charge of O for those 3 months he is off I will get more time with O.