Afternoon shitheads! Apologies for the following selfish rant.
I am feeling very guilty for it though. 
Had a shitty night with O last night, and I've realised every single night waking has me very pissed off. I shouldn't be pissed off, but I am. I am right at the end of my tether with the whole thing now! Especially as I know he slept through, and has been doing good long stretches sometimes. It is so inconsistent though.
Last night he was cranky at 7.30, which is the earliest I have put him down for a good few weeks. He slept til around midnight, but woke for no reason. Only the white noise will send him back off. 1.50 woke, and didn't settle, so fed after snapping at DP to get up and get the bottle for him
. Then he did go back in the cot, til 5.30. When he woke he was drifting back off, but kept waking. He wasn't hungry, so I put him in bed with me. He woke at 5.36, 5.42, 5.48, 5.54, 6.00, 6.06... basically, every 6 minutes til I snapped at 7.14 and demanded DP take him. 
I just want 6 hours unbroken sleep. Please. That is all. It doesn't matter what time I go to bed, as he has gone back to waking for no reason. Yes, he is easily settled back in the early part of the night, but fuck me, I am fed up of it!
3 hours seems to be the maximum unbroken sleep I am allowed.
I would like to say, DP was great, he took O, and then went downstairs. But my mummy radar does not turn off. The second he whinges, I hear him and wake. So even DP taking him downstairs does not give me chance for some unbroken sleep. Likewise DP doing the night feeds is utterly pointless. I wake anyway. I find the best help is him getting me the bottles, and taking him downstairs if I am knackered from a particularly bad nap.
The only way I could sleep is if O was not in the house. That sounds awful.
Luckily, for O anyway! He has redeemed himself! DP woke me with a 'he just rolled over, not just once, but several times!'
So, I guess that explains the above shit night, and the grumpiness from yesterday. Developmental leap, yes?
Fingers crossed for improvements now.
Oh, and O is currently in his cot!
. He fed at 1, and then was grumpy after it. So I swaddled him. He gave me the most gorgeous smile, and snuggled in to my arms. I gave him a quick cuddle, and he was obviously ready to sleep. So he got plonked in the cot, swaddled up, and has remained there since 1.20. This is his long afternoon nap, so I am pretty chuffed that I have not yet had to go to him. Normally his long nap, he wakes a few times, requiring settling back down.
Cot is the way forward! Viva la cot!!!
I have more to post. Think I'll do another post. This one is getting too long!
